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UPDATED - 2nd star named as HIV positive, plus current quarantine list
By: News-Medical
Published: Friday, 16-Apr-2004
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Lara Roxx who worked with Darren James has tested HIV-positive. Lara Roxx, one of three Canadians in the first-generation, has just been confirmed positive by the Adult Industry Medical Healthcare Foundation (AIM).

Roxx, who's age is rumoured to be either 18 or 19-years-old, performed in a scene with Darren James, Mark Anthony, Maxxx Black on March 24. Black is now quarantined as a member of a new line of the virus.

Black has since performed with Rayveness, who is now considered in second-generation of this new line of the virus and quarantined as well.

Roxx had only been in the adult industry for three months.

Her agent Daniel Perreault, the agent who handles the women for the Eromodel Group, told Roxx not to come to Los Angeles on this trip, saying he didn't believe she was ready yet. She came anyway.

In another development in James' line of the virus, John Strong has been identified as a person who worked with Banesca, one of the women in the first-generation of that line. Strong has been placed on the quarantine list.

As of 4/13/04, the AIM Healthcare Foundation found a positive detection for the HIV Virus of an actor named Darren James. His test results are pending for further confirmation and viral loads of HIV. These pending tests will give us further information into the date Mr. James contracted the virus. The following people are on quarantine from working in the industry until they retest!




Candy Ray 04-08-04 05-08-04
Deserie Clark 04-08-04 05-08-04
Miss Arroyo 03-30-04 04-30-04
Kayla Marie 04-07-04 05-07-04
Jessica Dee 03-24-04 04-24-04
Patrice Petite 04-08-04 05-08-04
Persia 03-19-04 04-19-04
Banesca 03-30-04 04-30-04
Jocelyn 03-19-04 04-19-04
Annie Cruz 03-29-04 04-29-04
Laura Roxx 03-24-04 04-24-04
Skylar Banks 04-08-04 05-08-04
Kayla Marie 04-08-04 05-08-04
Dynasty 03-25-04 04-25-04
Carlos Mendes Jessica Dee 04-12-04
Sean Michaels Jessica Dee 04-07-04
Julian St. Jox Jessica Dee 04-07-04
Mark Ashley Patrice 04-12-04
Judy Starr Patrice 04-12-04
TT Boy Skylar Banks 04-08-04
Marco T
Jason Zupalo
Mark Davis ??
DP Guy?? Sean Michaels 04-07-04
Dwayne Cummings Jocelyn 03-28-04
Alex Sanders Persia 03-31-04
Rhiannon Bray Persia 03-31-04
Steven St. Croix Banesca 04-09-04
Tony Sexton Miss Arroyo 04-01-04
Dominico Persia 03-24-04
LT Turner Jocelyn 03-24-04
Brian Surewood Annie Cruz 04-01-04
Sledge Hammer Annie Cruz 04-01-04
Mark Jessica Dee 04-01-04
Brock Jessica Dee 04-04-04
Jim Beem Banesca 03-19-04
Max Blacc Miss Arroyo 04-05-04
Alberto Ray Banesca 04-02-04
John Strong Banesca 04-02-04
Kelli Starr Persia 03-30-04
Mr. Pete Annie Cruz 03-29-04
Jean Val Jean Annie Cruz 03-30-04
Marc Anthony Dynasty 03-25-04
If anyone has any further information as to 2nd generation contacts please call the AIM staff ASAP 818 981-5681. Help us fill in the blanks in this urgent matter. Thanks to all for all your help today.
As of this afternoon 4/15/04, Laura Roxx, was detected HIV positive by PCR/DNA. We Have taken more speciments for viral load, and other confirmatory tests.


Maxxx 03-24-04 04-24-04
Mark Anthony 03-24-04 04-24-04
Darren James 03-24-04 04-24-04
Tyler Knight 03-25-04 04-25-04
Rayveness worked w/ Maxxx 04-08-04 05-08-04
Eva Lux worked w/Tyler 04-08-04 05-08-04

- Monday, May 03, 2004 at 11:15:54 (PDT)

Jessica Dee tests positive for HIV
A third performer, porn actress Jessica Dee, has tested positive for HIV, according to Adult Video News (safe for work: that page only; early roundup of the HIV story).

Dee, who had been quarantined on the "first generation" list, worked with Darren James on 3/24/04, the same day that Lara Roxx did, although Dee did not work directly with Roxx. This should pretty much end the irresponsible speculation (my previous comments on that here) that Lara Roxx was the source of the HIV outbreak. There used to be perhaps a 1% chance. Now that is down to about .01%.

The overwhelmingly likely scenario: Darren James is the source of the infection. Early last month he went to Brazil and engaged in high-risk behavior (probability, in order: unprotected, receptive anal sex with a man; needle use; others) and contracted HIV. Harboring HIV unknowingly, he returned and engaged in unprotected sex--including high-risk anal sex with the even higher-risk internal anal ejaculation, a porn industry favorite of late--with at least 13 women.

Which pretty much shows why regulating porn is not the same as regulating private sexual behavior (a favorite argument among porn producers). How many men would have the opportunity, upon contracting HIV, to have unsafe sex with 13 people in a couple or three weeks? It happens, sure. But the current requirements of porn--rough, even bizarre, anal sex among them, and generally unprotected--mean that it was almost guaranteed that Darren James would have a chance to infect many people before he found out about his infection. The fact that this unsafe activity was a job requirement should rightly concern every Californian. If you employ somebody in this state, especially to perform a dangerous activity, the state can lay down rules.

You don't get an exemption because you're making porn. Except that you do.

don't care about the sinners who perform in it, or porn producers, who have a financial incentive not to care about the people who perform in it. (I've been criticized for speaking out about this HIV crisis by some in the industry because I am not in the industry myself.)

The vast majority of us cede the entire discussion about porn to either people who make it or hate it or hate the people who make it.

If you're wondering why I keep talking about this porn crisis on my blog (hi, Mom!), that's why. Not talking about it, in general, created this problem.

Porn producers have had it easy so far. The shame people feel about consuming porn ($10B worth or so a year) actually works to the producers' advantage. Because people don't want to talk about it, you don't hear much of a discussion about the (lucrative) trend toward rough anal sex and younger and younger performers--a trend that almost certainly helped this crisis happen. "Double-anal" was not exactly common in the Boogie Nights era. That's how Roxx got infected.

And it happened in a coercive way, or at least unethical. She showed up on the set not knowing about the double-anal requirement (accounts differ as to why she was ignorant of it). Then she was told on the spot she could do double-anal or leave without being paid--her choice. Yes, she made the choice. But this is exactly the kind of manipulation that doesn't happen to actors in Hollywood films. They're protected from it six ways from Sunday--government and trade unions among them. And Hollywood actors are playing for much lower stakes.

Jessica Dee had no protection at all, in a job with life-and-death stakes.

No other industry would have been allowed to create such unsafe and unethical working conditions. None.

And if we'd talked about it five years ago, during the last porn industry HIV crisis, we probably wouldn't have let it happen again.

- Monday, May 03, 2004 at 11:12:35 (PDT)

Pittsfeild To North Adams massachusetts relentless
dyked out area of berkshires everything is for dyke
anyone personal business or family is to be violated
money grubbing and drug induced daisys coverups for
useing underage girls swinging with federal state and city dykes control of everything lieing is the norm and making up stories as well as changing things around to manipulate and win over anyone obstacle
torment and harassment 365 days a years attacking the same person heroin and crack and cocaine usage white supremacy turning races against each other anything for attention public staulking and harassment of target usually anyone male conspiracy at all levels
greedy and jealous crack and heroin induced possesive
obsessive ritual habitual behavior HIV secrecy is more impotant than national security and lying to FBI and all government agencies and when caught exchanging crack and heroin addicted hookers exchange sex for leniency is norm invasion of and heterosexual
violation is everyday passtime scamming and useing everyone els's money to fund daisy's and payoffs usually from a rich extortion or rich black mailed woman thats turning dyke (it will take some time before victim can grasp she is being surrounded and
lyed to and set up to spend rest of life from one partner to next with no respect from community for promiscuous drug and sex lifestyle bashing heterosexuals and manipulating gay law enforcement
- Monday, May 03, 2004 at 11:02:46 (PDT)

i guess its time to steal you away from your girlfriend again right hone ypieski?
- Monday, May 03, 2004 at 05:19:10 (PDT)

J.F.N.H.="Tinas got a Cat Box and its so fine
I love it in the morning
wanna make it mine
I love it in the evening
before the moonlight"

Dr. Gail= "no no no no no
.......not the Cat Box
not the Cat Box"

J.F.N.H.="I love Tinas cat box
its the one for me
I wanna get baptised in it
and never ever leave
I love Tina and her Cat Box not nessicaraily in that order
from deep in the middle
to all the borders and corners

Theres only one Cat Box that I ever want to see
thats Tinas little Cat Box"

The alarm went off and Dr. Gail rattled the tamberine slightly and said "Thats all we have time for today,See the cashier Mr. Hollywood"
- Sunday, May 02, 2004 at 17:15:56 (PDT)

"Tina let me check your Cat Box,Baby Baby Please"
Written By Travis Ray Cole

Tina let me check your Cat Box
let me check it once or twice,since its way way to nice
well you had better make it three
baby please leave the Cat Box checking to me
I'll be glad to do it and I'll do it for free
Tina let me check your Cat Box
its the only Cat Box hoot hoot the only one I need
Tina let me live inside your Cat Box honey baby
Hoot Hoot
Tina let me check your Cat Box
shoobie doobie doobie doo bie
where can I sign up to your Cat Box,tell me,
and your Cat Box dream?
Its the only one for me,blonde magic Cat Box and so very very purr-ty
Tina let me check your Hottest of all the worlds best of the best there is no better Cat Box
its the only thing that can save meeeeeeee
Tina let me check your Cat Box
in Tina's Cat Box I
believe! Salsa
- Sunday, May 02, 2004 at 17:00:32 (PDT)

Mr. Pooh Pooh look and see
if theres any fudge puddle truffle cakes in the semi encrusted enlongated cat box for me
Mr. Pooh Pooh look and se e
- Sunday, May 02, 2004 at 16:41:28 (PDT)

"Johnny Hollywood wake up
you don't have a brain!"
- Sunday, May 02, 2004 at 10:28:23 (PDT)

Johnny Hollywood wished he could just put the groucho
shades and moustatche on and give the reins of the cult to anyone who would take them so as he could let go of it

"Take Time To Smell The Crack Whores" is the way he put it

a little time of to reflect on my loss
a little time to reflect on my gain

time to relax
miller time only with Old Style
focus is right maybe the spell was holding him back while there was negitive energy facing him that was so weak it did'nt matter a bit he could really fuck the source up if he felt like it it was all an excuse
he wanted something new that was powerful
something that could make his heart stop beating like for instance Jessica

"No Johnny you must play the devils song" A voice spoke from the garden

The garden....
He could see her outline her shape her form

Johnny Hollywood knew he had seen cupcake before in another time another life atmosphere somewhere thats why he held on to her he knew he had some tie to her
and his soul that some many stories have been told about
did exist and was tied to hers

so No Negative
he could not release the spell
and he should close the gap between their minds by losing faith he could would lose everything
she was
she was from the garden
as she was from somewhere so was Johnny Hollywood

but alas Johnny Hollywoods only
fan that counted thought she liked Johnny Hollywood without even knowing how to start to know him at all who the fuck was she to assume who or what he was without even bothering to adlib a script with him
just survielance tapes and cameras holes in the wall
she was nothing to Johnny Hollywood and did'nt exist

like big brother always there

Johnny had no brothers left
only cameras
hidden cameras pepperioni
poperrotzie bogus photo shoots with security caught off guard
and more hidden cameras and wasted film

"But what about the crack whores Johnny Hollywood,ain't you gonna smell them now?"
asked Johnny Hollywoods shitternet stalker bitch.

God left the biggest bulldyke in the cross roads
and when Johnny Hollywood formally complained
thats when
God up in heaven found a loop hole as fast as you can make me a nice cheesecake

God told Johnny Hollywood that the reason the biggie sized nightmare was in Johnny's crossroads was that Johnny Hollywood was not at a crossroads.
which was actually was true.

Johnny Hollywood was getting tired of waiting for the big rock and roll monies to fund his expedition to go sniffin' round Jessica and decieded if the Edward Lowe Cat Box grant money did not come in soon and if he did'nt end up in a psychward getting a nice little government "nut check" he would just walk down yonder barefoot if he had to
since it was only thirty seven point six million
cat boxes units of measurement away.

As a birthday surprise Johnny Hollywoods granny and great granny bought him more of the counties ugliest hookers and he did'nt know what to do with the problem so he called up you when they were in the back ground to make you jealose but did it work?

So there Johnny Hollywood was trying to explain to Miss 2004
1. He was not using other women as inspiration and
2. just a lot more of number 1.

the sun came out and the skies are blue
blue and white
Johnny Hollywood could not find the retarded bitch that agreed to let the band duct tape the camera to her head so he thought the next best thing to do would be to hire snookums to

hold the camera and film this mornings emergency brain surgries and that is all nothing else was required of her,what so ever,they had no binding contract that she
would have to wear any kind of outfits like the chatholic school outfit or the french maid outfit or
nurses uniform just as long as she filmed the whole thing because Johnny Hollywood knew going into this that the sweet doctor was only praticing.

Johnny Hollywood lay on the cold steel table and Dr. Gail took his brain out and dropped it in the floor and kicked it across the room.

like a sponge that was soaked with water it was heavy and full of Tina

Dr. Gail was pissed she just spent all that time last week sanding Tina off the outter edges of Johnny Hollywoods brain and it was back

Dr. Gail squeezed Johnnys brain until it was dry and threw it into the fireplace.

Then the camera girl Johnny hired
{who was wearing the catholic school mini skirt all on her own} got a great close up of Johnny Hollywoods brain melting

"Nice camera work" Said Dr. Gail.

Johnny Hollywood went back to the crossroads where the devil always hide s.
- Sunday, May 02, 2004 at 10:19:08 (PDT)

The Gypsy woman was looking mean and nasty
"You must release the spell, Johnny Hollywood,before it's to late" She said as her eyes burned into Johnny's, and after a few lap dances He wanted to see into the crystal ball for himself if only to watch a few previews.

- Sunday, May 02, 2004 at 09:27:17 (PDT)

"I am under contract to write poetry thats all,nobody said it could'nt be about Cat Boxes'& Crack Whores,
Now give me my money" Johnny Hollyood yelled into the phone as he sat at a table in the middle of the "Geodonnilos brand greasory" located in Gurnee.
Embarassing the biggest heffer he could get to fit in the door as she ate the breadsticks from the neighboring tables.
- Saturday, May 01, 2004 at 17:01:39 (PDT)

After bieng dead for so long Johnny Hollywod had about all the reclusivness he could take and now needed massive doses of the hottest Yoko on the planet
and welcomed her imput,not that he was going to listen to anything anyone said but you know.
- Saturday, May 01, 2004 at 16:55:27 (PDT)

Johnny Hollywood lay there tied to the railroad tracks and watched Gail pull away in her beamer as the train rounded the bend as Johnny worked on his new song it seemed like he was running out of time
but still Johnny sang the fresh lyrics to the love song project
- Saturday, May 01, 2004 at 16:43:31 (PDT)

"Where are the photos of your little girlfriend,Johnny Hollywood?" said Dr. Gail as she reloaded the survielance cameras that faced the crossroads.

Johnny Hollywood just looked at the blank photos that she did not show up in the film on,then he looked inside the camera and she was not there either.

"You know what a camaro looks like? I don't have one?" Were the first questions Johnny Hillbillytard asked.
- Saturday, May 01, 2004 at 16:38:47 (PDT)

"Love spells are the devils work, Johnny Hollywood" Dr. Gail said as she drained all of Johnny Hollywoods blood into a bucket to later make candles with.

"I don't love the devil,I love God,the Goddess"
Said Johnny Hollywood as a cry for help.
- Saturday, May 01, 2004 at 16:30:45 (PDT)

Johnny Hollywoods caseworker broke into his crib and broke his waterpik.
He knew it was her,there was no other explaination.

Dr. Gail studied her notes and looked over at Johnny Hollywood resting peacefully on the expensive black leather couch Dr. Gail bought with the royalities from
the book she wrote about how crazy Johnny really is.

"So to summerize You think killing the nieghbors pets instead of the nieghbors first is a step forward and if that don't work then the peoples can die,right Johnny?"

Johnny Hollywood startled awake

"Johnny,I'm going to prescribe an extra strengh Bertha dosage a Bertha so strong so powerful that you will never think about redheads again"Doctor Gail said tossing her crap peter paul and mary cut across her shoulders.

Johnny Hollywood bailed out the window and rolled into the dirt of the road construction that has only taken five years so far.
- Saturday, May 01, 2004 at 16:24:51 (PDT)

Johnny hollywood tried to lie to the truth
but he did it from a completely different crossroads hoping not to get caught but there was no way around it
If your not at the same cross roads together at the same time how could the spell work

So even though Johnny Hollywood traveled many a crossroads with God and explained that he did have a perceptional vision that was set on the crossroads a quarter mile ahead at all times,that was a long shot and could not compensate for the five mile distance between the required crossroads and the wrong position.
- Saturday, May 01, 2004 at 16:06:01 (PDT)

security was heavy but getting lighter

"The guys crazy" said the cute thought monitor administration apprentice as she stomped her silly ass out the door.

Johnny hollywood wondered if Morrison had this much trouble with his,Um ....Ho.

Dr. Gail was bored with it to but could'nt leave if she wanted to since her beamer was blocked in by Johnny Hollywoods welfare cadillac that not even a team of landscapers would buy even at times of war

"Its the same old shit day after day with you Johnny Hollywood its always the same your Morrison your Lenny Bruce YOUR NOWHERE MAN, Your a waste of time.
Gail spoke as she made the heavily dosed Bertha Meds cookies that looked fresh from the cat box
- Saturday, May 01, 2004 at 14:10:06 (PDT)

"Why Don't We Do It In The Road?"

Johnny Hollywood went down to the Cross Roads looking for the truth

"You can't lie to the truth, Johnny Hollywood"
said the devil.

Johnny Hollywood did'nt listen he was thinking about doin' an angel right there in the crossroads
and if he could get that scene done in under five takes then with a little praying he might be able to sue the beatles and get a brick house in Lake Forest that the big bad wolf could'nt make it past the security system......and then maybe he would think "she" as in hottest all time honey would be considered a massieritti but no, that vehicle seemed to large,the right amount of class but a little to big for this dream
this dream a dream
so a Gibson S.G.,A flying "V",a porsche
magic cheese cake


Johnny Hollywood went back to the crossroads
- Saturday, May 01, 2004 at 13:59:34 (PDT)

And the thought monitor went blank again
the rat hole empty

The hillbillys with hats interview went as follows

H.B.w/H : "knock knock"

Mr. Hollywood : "What the fuckski do you people want? I don't know how to play country pop"
- Saturday, May 01, 2004 at 13:47:05 (PDT)

The newspapers were calling at ten in the morning on Saturday and the media was out front of the Hollywood estate. It seems Johnny Hollywood's Mom got busted smuggling landscapers into the country again and not one of them would buy his welfare cadillac,
and speaking of country,
The country Music station wanted to know the scoop too,via the Bertha Medicaticion.
This had to happen in the midst of Johnny Hollywood
just getting ready to get out of the music biz and go into making bumper stickers full time still hoping to relocate in the niceities of Lake Forest with the super honey and her cat.

"All this looks good on paper to you? A plan based on a bumper sticker that says Quote "My crackwhore can beat up your crack whore?"
Dr. Gail said not believing her ears.

The police helicopters were swarming the Hollywood estate by air causing the siding to fly off Johnny Hollywoods late seventys trailer
- Saturday, May 01, 2004 at 13:38:05 (PDT)

Johnny Hollywood was very confused
what color is my fiancee's hair he wondered all the time it was in every catagory except blue
and green but all the other colors she had covered and he could'nt began to narrow it down at all it was red it was burnette and it was blonde and he no longer cared what color it was he still had it tied with his around the cross he always wore
He told Doctor Gail in confedence

"What the fuck are you talking about Johnny Hollywood,You don't have a fiancee" said Gail

"I don't ,then whyam I paying her alimony?" asked Johnny Hollywood

You are imagining things again Johnny" Gail said again.
people don't pay alimony to thier fiancee"
"Oh" Johnny Hollywood said as he tried to wake up.
- Saturday, May 01, 2004 at 11:45:34 (PDT)

"Its so dry here" Said Sherry,whose cat box dried up for good a long time ago.

"How dry is it?"

Its so dry that the milk of crackwhore came out a powdera complete circle
distilled even
powder to liquid to powder again
but the good news is that its street value is twice as much as it was in the first place.
- Saturday, May 01, 2004 at 11:36:25 (PDT)

After Johnny Hollywood was secured in the electric chair in the bottomless cat box pit
Sweet Bertha paced back and forth looking down over the edge at Johnny thru the sights of her assault rifle

as the sunspotted his eyes he could see her Cross Threaded Lesbian Mafia Union uniform's medals shine like a beacon as Tina Marie nibbled on Johnny hollywoods left ear lobe and hickyed his neck,
Linda Silverstone slobbered on his right ear lobe
and Dr. Gail Schultzski {also blonde} smacked Johnny Hollywoods navigational system with a yard stick that had staples in it every time Johnny Hollywoods navigational system moved towards the blonde nibblers.

"So like, Its not valentines day?" Johnny Hollywood asked.
- Saturday, May 01, 2004 at 10:50:39 (PDT)

After watching CNN brand news for seventy-three hours straight Johnny Hollywood thought about quitting coffee for good and moved his best guitars into the fall out shelter hoping to phase into the Seizure Chords mode without Yoko there to tell him how much it sucked musicaly while even though none of his guitars were gas powered Johnny Hollywood knew Bob Dylan could'nt stop the war unless he changed the channel.
- Friday, April 30, 2004 at 20:04:27 (PDT)

Johnny Hollywood dreamed of breeding with the finest woman he ever seen in his life and the best line he could come up with was "When I get that big rock and roll money,me and you are going to move to lake forest"
then the bastard tried to reuse the same lines he used on his vocal teacher no wonder she was pissed. What could he do but try to explain that his brain was so intoxicated by her beauty,her presence that he was lucky to be able to think at all.
- Friday, April 30, 2004 at 14:17:30 (PDT)

Johnny hollywood woke up back on KellyCakes Island where all the women folk was downright ugly 'ceptin' fer the islands namesake.

Johnny Hollywood tried to see if the emergency brain surgery worked but could'nt remember what he wanted to forget so it must have.

"Now Johnny you are ready for the anti-bertha brain surgery" said Dr. Gail as she ran at hin with a little modeling knife.
- Friday, April 30, 2004 at 14:09:36 (PDT)

"How can you afford this, Johnny Hollywood,having emergency brain surgery in the middle of the night
and a house call too?" asked the third bulgarain Johnny Hollywood had bought that looked like Olivia
,pink eye lids and cheeks blonde and skinny. He had nine of them all together four from poland three from bulgaia only one from russia this time and another from romiania.

"Its not that expensive this brain surgery when done in your own home by a well mannered marriage consoler who was still mad at Johnny Hollywood from his second failed marriage" Said the romainian who could have passed for Olivias stunt double if their was no Tina.

Dr. Gail had Johnny Hollywoods brain in one hand and was sanding it with fine sand paper ever so lightly
to remove the memory of Tina

"Its really for the best,Johnny Hollywood has a nice girl who is the sweetest thing on the planet and he loves the living fuck out of her but he has this Tina problem and while I am erasing it I am also trying to leave,not only the minor penatonic scale {which he was so worried about} and as a special bonus I am leaving the blues scales and the freebird lick in his brain too, at the same time removing the Tina but I did not forsee the problems inside Johnny Hollywoods brain before I started it seems the Tina is a drug to Johnny Hollywood and we did not know that going into this but we did know he was addicted to her milk,Now what we could do is just shit can Johnny Hollywoods brain and start over with a brain of a hamster" Gail told the crowd that begun to gather in Johnny Hollywoods labatory as the local newspaper called to see if Johnny Hollywood wanted to renew his ad next week offering a large reward for the return of Tina.

"Oh is Johnny hollywoods super fine curly haired fiancee going to be pissed if you don't get that Tina out of his brain" said Johnny Hollywoods nastiest crackwhore from round lake park.
- Friday, April 30, 2004 at 14:04:44 (PDT)

She peered through the window
with a shaded heart,
tinted a most beautiful colour of
Her anger could have replaced the colour,
the tint,
but it was too ingrained,
stubborn like her feet that would not
move past that windowpane.
Stubborn like her hands,
the sweat from her grip on the sill
rubbing paint chips into her flesh.
Her anger could have melted will.
Her anger could have set men free,
her anger and that lovely heart,
but rather it keeps her here,
where we keep the others

- Friday, April 30, 2004 at 10:41:21 (PDT)

"The I ain't got nobody, but a dirty ol' crack whore blues" in the key of A

{intro solo}
I ain't got nobody
D//// //// A//// ////

I ain't got nobody

I ain't got no one

but a dirty ol' crack whore

{Solos 1 thru 5}

blues turnaround

I ain't got nobody
D//// //// A//// ////

I ain't got nobody

no one

but a dirty ol' crack whore

{solos 6 thru 10}

I ain't got nobody
D//// //// A//// ////

I ain't got nobody

I ain't got no one

but a dirty ol' crack whore

{outro sol o}
Written By Johnny Francis Nicolas Hollywood
- Friday, April 30, 2004 at 05:41:14 (PDT)

let me check your cat box baby
let me look and see
let me check your cat box maybe
it belongs to me me me me me
- Friday, April 30, 2004 at 05:32:10 (PDT)

if you can't get it right during the first set of pills then you will never get it at all and it is only your clients of silence that will suffer
- Thursday, April 29, 2004 at 19:47:56 (PDT)

- Thursday, April 29, 2004 at 19:31:51 (PDT)

you may be strong but under pressure you would snap like a twig. I am cool but its only because I cannot stay put
and he is the roll inside the thunder
- Thursday, April 29, 2004 at 19:29:17 (PDT)

not if I don't want to be
and I don't cause I am not
a wannabe
- Thursday, April 29, 2004 at 19:17:37 (PDT)

the black rose was a long time ago
as long as your hair
all the magic in your heart
echos in mine
theres no sense in kissing goodbye
because forever you are mine
- Thursday, April 29, 2004 at 18:38:35 (PDT)

I would choose the one
I would choose the only one
I would pick the one I could really love

I would

she is right there
all the worlds unfair
so I know
- Thursday, April 29, 2004 at 18:34:44 (PDT)

If I had my way
you'd see heaven
nuthin's dry 'round here

- Thursday, April 29, 2004 at 11:25:31 (PDT)

"Johnny Hollywood and the band "rat Acid" never really praticed at McDonald's Woods forest preserve but they did hang out there in the ouww scarry pitch black darkness and party alot and the second guitar player did get in trouble with the laws there for riding his rubber raft in the swamp but they never said nothing about his little problem with burning the bibles at the tree that Johnny Hollywood said he seen psychic shit from the past including someone dying against one of the trees in the path that had wierd carvings on it
maybe he was just really stoned that night
maybe someone did die against that tree

then there was the guitar fretboard and notes Johnny Hollywood seen when he scattered the coals of the fire around and how it looked exactly like the stars and it told Johnny Hollywood what notes to play.
yeah McDonalds Woods,with three Beck roads

It has had some wierd shit happen there in the past like the crazy guy who was living there and killed the old lady whose house was behind itwhen he told her he wanted to buy her old car she had for sale then he went and tried to live there. No that was'nt Rat Acid connected.

But this morning when Johnny Hollywood woke up and seen Mr. Pooh Pooh kitty trying to ride the fax machine like it was a surf board and with the news people always talking about the circus cats that got loose and have been spotted last week in Mc Donalds woods he knew those cats were looking for the Rat Acid Band and Mr. Pooh Pooh was trying to signal them about the anti-Cat Box activity that he has been witness to,
but Johnny Hollywood has not yet recieved the government grant to further the Edward Lowe project
"Operation Finish the Cat Box".

"What will Johnny Hollywood really do with the monies to finish the cat box problem if he really does get a government grant to fix it right up? Will he put in a new flush valve? Will he party it all away?
Or will he like the bastard he is use the cat box party monies to further stereotype all the women in the world like the bastard he is into little catagories of Berthas, Barbies and Yoko's
but where would the freckled girl fall in and what about the most hottest of them all how could that one be stereotyped with nothing to compare unless he just says women of grayslake but all of it is a contradiction because even with all of this anti-cat box crap he is completly working for the betterment of the aforementioned cat box happiness or just a chance to get next to her cat box like all the world is a sunny day,ANd with that kind of inspiration Johnny Hollywood pratices more often, Butis this the answer to all of Johnny hollywoods problems
yes and no some say.
What do you suggest?" The Bertha Meds asked from afar.
- Thursday, April 29, 2004 at 05:40:43 (PDT)

fourteen hours later Johnny Hollywood admited it was not his Island at all
- Wednesday, April 28, 2004 at 18:22:33 (PDT)

Johnny Hollywood found himself on an island full of ugly women,but still believed in legalization even if it would never in a million years change,adjust or repair the problem at hand.

"Maybe I could get so stoned I can't see" Said Johnny Hollywood.

The ghost of his brother reminded him that the reason Johnny Hollywoods dad started calling him Johnny Hollywood in the first place was a direct result of the darkend welfare shades Johnny Had ordered from some eyeglass place on broadway,when he came out into the sunlight thats when he was reborn Johnny Hollywood
His father called him that first then they drank beer to confirm his new title. Now Johnny Hollywood has'nt really wore shades much since his brother died so maybe its time to wear those shades that are so dark you can't see how ugly the native bitches are in your hoodski there Johnny Hollywood" the bertha medicene said over and over.

"It is because you are in love Johnny Hollywood, all those nasty bitches on your island are blocked out of your vision because your brain is set on that sweet girl with the curls" Dr. Gail Schultzski told Johnny Hollywood.

"Then Why's the mothercensorski bitchin' about how ugly the girls on his island are if he can't see them?" Asked Dr. Gails therapist who also delivers pizza for dominos brand pizza on her jetski .
- Wednesday, April 28, 2004 at 18:19:52 (PDT)

"more purtty than undergroundski"

"Even though she agreed and her contract stated her duties would entale seeing what the fuckski our hero was up to and asking a few key questions from time to time
he was psycho crazy about her cat boxness and believed her to be his favorite flavor

would her mistake be that
she wanted to get mixed up in his craziness a little more than logic could permit?
and if she left the underground party wont they like some secret branch of some secret government myth be a little upset that she went for the object of survielance and cancel her subpop prescription to any other direction?" The Bertha Meds aske d

- Wednesday, April 28, 2004 at 15:50:57 (PDT)

It took a while but we got grandma to work on the wedding dresses just in case Johnny Hollywood did find a nice girl to settle down with and rewrite the traditional vows

at first granny was hesitant about making white bib overalls size 26 so Bertha could tie the knot and work in the fields the same day and after granny did agree she said she was'nt gonna make it in white it would have to be in color since bertha was'nt a virgin had kids and was already married to a nice man who supports them kids like they has his own
"Hell she might have colored kids by now grandma can't ya all make them over alls in white ?"

The next dress was for the third fiancee this one needs pockets for crack pipes,
Grandma and pockets for needles on the garter belt and a pocket for brass brillo scrub pads maybe hidden somewhere in the viel.

"I ain't making no crack pipe pockets for no wedding dresses"Grandma told everyone straight out

"Remember Grandma, the material needs to be resistant of the chicken grease stains because even though the wedding vows will not reflect the bucket of chickens
importance Mr. Hollywood does plan to eat a bucket of chicken off the new brides belly
unless she has a better ideal" Said Crissy {the stupid little bitch now in charge of the wedding party plans.

"All of this to make your next wife jealose?" Said the doorman

"Why can't she just wear her old catholic school dress?
And I promise not to eat chicken off it" Johnny Hollywood said trying to save a few bucks until he gets that big rock and roll money.

"Swching!! Yeah why not?"Said Johnny Hollywoods navigational system trying to help save even more money

"Remember Grandma her ass is dank" Johnny Hollywood said only trying to help

"It don't go by the size of her ass,
it goes by thier top" Grandma hollered.

"Oh I been looking at her ass" Said Johnny Hollywood wrong about things yet again because stop me if you heard this on before hes a man
the I'm a man riff played in the background and the angels in heaven who Johnny Hollywood never had sex with started to sing the song "My Sharonna" only instead of My Sharonna they were singing "My Curly haired girl from G.L."
Johnny Hollywood knew not to argue with god and if she caught him talking to this nice blonde angel "amy"
who looked like Bertha back in the day it would mean no more tickle toes and have'nt we pissed God off enough by now
- Wednesday, April 28, 2004 at 15:09:50 (PDT)

i love/lust you 2
- Wednesday, April 28, 2004 at 14:55:42 (PDT)

your toes are the most sexiest toes I have ever seen
your curly hair tied with mine thru and around the cross I wear still
you are my only dream
you are my only dream when I was in southern Illinois I was sleeping and this one dream I had of you still is there your beauty never leaves me
your art decorated my mind
I lust for you so much
but I love you all the time
so then you to me are God

- Wednesday, April 28, 2004 at 13:57:30 (PDT)

I said your cute when I looked into your eyes
I meant to say the most beautiful girl I have ever seen
but I try to stay cool since you keep me in check
I try to remain and maintain
and not say how much I love you and not tell you how much I care
- Wednesday, April 28, 2004 at 13:52:02 (PDT)

I believe in you
- Wednesday, April 28, 2004 at 11:42:16 (PDT)

remind me of an S.G.
- Wednesday, April 28, 2004 at 11:39:33 (PDT)

- Wednesday, April 28, 2004 at 11:19:54 (PDT)

I don't think I am done trying
to entertain myself
but my choice is not my choice
it is our fate

How no one looks like
- Wednesday, April 28, 2004 at 10:52:58 (PDT)

the cold has set in
and it will stay until
the heat takes its place
during this time my mind
will be beyond the blues
and you know it too cause
you is the one that gave
them to me because you
agreed to meet me under
those intriguing details
I gave to you on the same
day as today but the date
is not right only for our date
but in the end this was not our fate
so now behind the gates of cold
I will shake until the heat takes over
and makes me awake so that I may bake a cake
- Tuesday, April 27, 2004 at 20:00:43 (PDT)

Kitty Litter in the 70's

everything under the sun
lots of coffee and heinikein
middle of a millpond
firkin pool
a kiss goodnight
to last a lifetime
and its only been 1095 days

- Tuesday, April 27, 2004 at 19:34:50 (PDT)

Johnny Hollywoods attorney finished up quickly there was no breach of promise and Johnny Hollywood could not be held to the two year contract he signed for miss silverstone to be his groupie because he was legally crazier than dogshit.

So now all he had to do was bring god a flower or something
- Tuesday, April 27, 2004 at 05:56:56 (PDT)

The S.S. Bertha's Cat Box was bieng fired upon,hit and taking in water Johnny Hollywood had another one of his major revelations
God could be his wife!

The water level was rising
all the crack whores could go overboard and the best could be kept
it was a good plan and if he did get the big rock n roll money the same plan would work fine either way
they were extra weight and time was running out

Johnny Hollywood needed to do something quick
so he would be a confirmed passanger on the upcoming love boat episoides after pretending he had the nasty crack whores interested in him live on the shitternetski and God catching him in this little charade he would not only be in trouble but he was in love he was in lust and in fantasyland forsure
- Tuesday, April 27, 2004 at 05:27:52 (PDT)

you are

breathing hope

- Tuesday, April 27, 2004 at 00:25:29 (PDT)

- Monday, April 26, 2004 at 13:23:52 (PDT)

"the bizatch bizo snatch owes you money Johnny Hollywood and your going to continue to waste your time on her" said the president of the mail order bride scam.

Johnny Hollywood was done buying razors so that ugly bitch could shave and still she had facial hair on everything but her expired visa.
- Monday, April 26, 2004 at 13:19:57 (PDT)

The bell rang and the mosh pit swallowed Johnny Hollywood whole

The leader of The Cross Threaded Lesbian Mafia Union picked Johnny Hollywood up and tossed him onto her shoulders
she spun around nine times and threw him out of the ring where he landed in the third roll.
- Monday, April 26, 2004 at 12:26:01 (PDT)

- Monday, April 26, 2004 at 09:32:00 (PDT)

Johnny Hollywoods plan worked
he was trying to out mindgame little miss mind fuck
at her own game and trying to stay out of check
move the game pieces around
trying to be down

"You better go on and get together with that bitch on the shitternet Johnny Hollywood because you know you ain't had pussy since pussy had you" Said Bonnie Parkers Momma.

Johnny Hollywood knew she must be right and thier was no sense in pretending like his entire existance was based on a girl from the north

"I hopes you not gonna bring back no eskimo's Mr. Hollywoods" The obease black door man said as he held his hand out.

Johnny Hollywood did'nt have any extra funds for the door man and his doorman advice but he was shure to throw on the Doors Cd when he got to the room full of mirrors.

the pizzas here
- Monday, April 26, 2004 at 09:24:28 (PDT)

my happiness no longer looks like Bertha
she likes to shoot the shit
She says she loves me all the time
but I know she don't mean it

- Monday, April 26, 2004 at 06:42:04 (PDT)

When you closed your eyes
I disappeared,
stuck somewhere in your
right ventricle.

Even now I feel your fingers
at my throat,
and our scent
just inside my nose.

You have forced my hands down.
A knot in the cartoid.

This, my love,
is your perfection.

- Sunday, April 25, 2004 at 23:38:09 (PDT)

Your missing out
on how good I could make you feel
hate to say it but ---
- Sunday, April 25, 2004 at 20:36:51 (PDT)

When the subject came up Johnny Hollywood told the crowd he would do an angel
- Sunday, April 25, 2004 at 19:58:01 (PDT)

The changing of the crack whore cerimony went way into overtime and Johnny Hollywood knew his wife Olivia would miss him if he was'nt dreaming.
The line up looked like disco night at the trailer park laundry mat

"Whats the problem" the Jury asked "How long does it take to choose a new crack whore?"

"Usually it would be over by now and he would have choose the freckled waitress but his brain is locked on Olivia's stunt double "Tina" and hes not accepting the Bertha Transplant replacement" said The devil

"What if we found another bertha that looks like Tina who looks like Olivia?" asked Johnny Hollywoods favorite caseworker whos hair looked like yellow roses.

"No! that will only cause a big bertha blur where they all look like Bertha and then the only thing thAt will make his brain have a sensible thought process would be a red head and the worlds hottest red head is still pissed at him for making her late so I don't recomend that we try it because maybe his brain will freeze and the thought monitor recieving all thoughts from his brain will fuck up and the printer will do more crazy shit and then the government will want to sue us again for wasting film when its not our fault so we gotta keep his brain moving and different pictures moving thru it so it doesnt look suspicous even if he only thinks about some super model for days again then it was caused by his brain and it could not be our fault so just get another new Bertha if that one did not register maybe he needs higher concentrated doses of the new edition of Bertha,you dont want to overdose him I mean his heart wont stop beating unless you give him Jessica thats what stops his heart and I don't want a murder charge,if he still gots a heart,he might have traded it to the devil for a chance to suck Tinas middle toe again." Said Special "K" Johnny Hollywoods personel head nurse
- Sunday, April 25, 2004 at 19:27:56 (PDT)

"forget it dude" Satan told Johnny Hollywood "Tina's been turned into kitty kitty and your going to have to pick up and go on now theres nothing wrong with the edition of Bertha so thats where the blonde fetish stands"

Johnny Hollywood knew satan was again lying why not even Satan could turn Tina into kitty kitty and Johnny Hollywood still was planning to kill kitty kitty and marry Tina although he might always almost never refuse the fact the the new Bertha was a Bertha to be reconized and on the scale of hot Berthas last nights Bertha was doing much better than carmen diaz.
- Sunday, April 25, 2004 at 16:37:31 (PDT)

"What if kitty kitty was really Tina turned into a common house pet by some magic jealose witch" Johnny Hollywoods rollercoaster ride of blonde thought hit the roof again causing the microchip to overheat and thus begun the witch hunt and again Johnny Hollywood raised the bounty on The ever so sweet Tina of Johnny Hollywoods dream Johnny Hollywood placed everything on Red Hot
"let it roll" He told the devil.

The devil was pissed after releasing the new hot little Bertha on Johnny Hollywood he still was looking for Tina.
- Sunday, April 25, 2004 at 16:24:15 (PDT)

Even though kitty kitty was all yellow like Tina and had yellow eyes yellow like the aforementioned supergoddess of crack whoreism and the unquestioned reason they really call it Fucks Lake as a matter of fact.

"The newest hot little Bertha did have better nails than the kitty kitty even though I don't remember the color I think pink" Johnny Hollywoods brain said on the first level
"I remember red nails" Johnny Hollywoods brain said on the second level.
"pink" the first level answered back.
- Sunday, April 25, 2004 at 16:15:42 (PDT)

"The Bertha Medicene works great" Johnny Hollywood said as if he was doing a Bertha Meds Commerical

Johnny Hollywoods new naked editor dont exist said the Bertha Meds

Johnny cared not
but it was'nt kroakee night was it? the sky questioned
- Sunday, April 25, 2004 at 13:21:57 (PDT)

The phone rang and rang

"Thank You for calling Johnny Hollywoods residence,hes not available at the present time because hes out blameing his farts on Kitty Kitty" Beeep

Johnny Hollywood give me a call the new Bertha import is in beep said the frantic voice inside the wind tunnel.

"Sunday at three fifteen pm" said the operator from the nineteen thirty-seven movie
- Sunday, April 25, 2004 at 13:16:00 (PDT)

The new winner of most of the contests got gone maybe with an enlarged Bertha and Johnny Hollywood rode in the stagecoach to round up the morning posse to began the search for her hieness the high priestess of Tina crack soreism,only after Johnny Hollywood called up the devil and tried to make a new deal where if the cat box was half full then Johnny Hollywood would then neither give nor get the hot Tina crack sores and the obligatory Tina crack sore smiles.

"But thats whats holding your heart together Johnny Hollywood, Them ol' Tina crack sores and the Tina Crack Sore Blues" Said the way way overpaid welfare quack sweet Gail.

"Should'nt that be The Tina Crack Sores Blues Band?"
asked Doctor Gails apprentance the devil.

God knew Johnny Hollywood and his friends were men so they were wrong and Johnny Hollywood knew it too but the no one wanted to remeber the nasty women Johnny Hollywoods dad used to drag home from the plentiful heffer smogisborg collection at the favorite welfare office and Coloumbo was going to get to the bottom of the story before cnn on the day of the lord
before the original microchip melted and they replaced it with Gibson brand guitar parts
Johnny Hollywoods brain went into the index of mail order brides and deleted each and every file replacing them all with one female goddess
To slave or Slave not the slut looked like she was tied up
"What are you wearing" was the title of the new album that day.
So Johnny Hollywood was again the first to overdrive the amp with a larger amp causing that warm tone
right before or a while before it blows up.

"did you say blow?" asked the whorecop as she applied even more spakle to her badly damaged face

Theres no art there the lord spoke thru a pile of freshly puked up spell-getti
- Sunday, April 25, 2004 at 13:07:22 (PDT)

Why shave its the weekend the lord sent a message thru the toilet water noises telling Johnny Hollywood satan was a blonde and that satan would look even better carring Johnny Hollywoods litter if satan would'nt mind bieng spawned upon.

Johnny Hollywood splashed the pure and clean un-demonic tap water onto his face and dried it on a towel covered with cat hair The director sent in the generic Bertha
- Sunday, April 25, 2004 at 12:40:40 (PDT)

The guiltpain eats away at the worm brains
come on come on and do the locomotion on me
- Saturday, April 24, 2004 at 13:26:36 (PDT)

I am still every breath you breathe
and every channel on your TV screen

- Saturday, April 24, 2004 at 12:27:22 (PDT)

I melted

and you still don't know

- Saturday, April 24, 2004 at 11:15:04 (PDT)

The microchip in Johnny Hollywoods teeth short circuited and while he was making out with his honey
he kept getting a shock,so its a good thing that because thier was a gas war going on that they were not making out next to the gas pumps because even though it is not illegal yet it still could have caused an explosion.
- Friday, April 23, 2004 at 08:52:20 (PDT)

.kiss\ /kiss.
./kisskisskisski sskiss\.
*ºkisskisskisskisskisskiss kisskissº*
\kisskisskisskisskisskis s/

- Thursday, April 22, 2004 at 20:11:05 (PDT)

I did it because I want to be the only one you like
so its like that
- Thursday, April 22, 2004 at 16:17:14 (PDT)

he's got groove in his eyes
he's got groove in his lips
he's got groove in his hips
he's got groove in his mind
he's got groove in his soul
he's got groove in his heart

qwe rtyuiopasdfghjklzxcvbnm
- Thursday, April 22, 2004 at 15:25:35 (PDT)

I am so weak right now that I would do anything
including sucking your dick for some coke ... so
please just give me a drink.
the real thing
- Thursday, April 22, 2004 at 15:18:55 (PDT)

the rocks were big and had splits throughout them and I just happened to stumble upon one and when I looked at it all I could see was a perfect crossroads staring at me. I knew immediately that this was the place and soon baby soon it will know your face too.
- Thursday, April 22, 2004 at 15:09:59 (PDT)

you have demonized me to the point where noone anywhere likes me and why you did this is totally beyond me but what you never knew I am sure is that I helped you ruin me.
- Thursday, April 22, 2004 at 15:03:08 (PDT)

I did not come prepared because I did not think I was going to win but let me begin by saying thank you to all who supported me during my time of need and so with this award that I have won I only won because of you.
- Thursday, April 22, 2004 at 14:52:23 (PDT)

The devil stood at the crossroads and told Johnny Hollywood he would show him where Johnnys favorite crack whore of all time was if Johnny Hollywood gave him his soul and since the devil got real old now he did not remember when Johnny Hollywood already gave him his soul to be a half way decent guitar player and that Johnny Hollywood had no soul left to make a bet like this but he agreed anyway not really giving a rats ass what the cocuenquences may be and right after that he went to the dog track to see how his luck would be there.

He knew someone was pulling a different direction than he wanted to go and since he knew that he just reflected that bad energy and as it passed him it took the "bad" energy he had with it building up even more and it has found its way back to its original source causing great damage but Johnny hollywood was now pissed while focusing hold the fuckski on
- Thursday, April 22, 2004 at 14:39:08 (PDT)

"You really have gone over the edge this time Johnny Hollywww.ood ! "Gail the doctor of love scolded him like she was his momma and he was a redheaded bastard step child. "Buying women for Russia and Poland and Yugofuckski because they look like women you know here that won't have no thang to do with your stupid ass and then the ones you bought are only good for landscaping or toilet cleaning duties because they won't have nothing to do with your retarded ass either" said Gail this time trying to sound like a prejuduce oreo.
- Thursday, April 22, 2004 at 14:30:01 (PDT)

Johnny Hollywood signed a two year contract for Linda Silverstone to be his groupie and go out to the 'talian
restraunte and make the worlds hottest redhead jealose from time to time as soon as the extremly nice looking girl at the bank handed him the pen.
- Thursday, April 22, 2004 at 14:06:19 (PDT)


The steel barrow shined beautiful colors in the midnight sky
as Johnny Hollywood held the barrel of the forty-five
to the stupid bitches head and pulled the trigger several times in a half assed attept to rid himself of boredom contained blues
then he put a hunk of her brain in the blender and feed it to the hogs out by the back porch

The copsucking badge holding bitch took forever to put on her make up and after a few pitchers of margiritas she wanted her sewage lines under the cat box clusterfucked in a bad way and two more pitchers of margiritas didnt change the script any either
- Thursday, April 22, 2004 at 13:59:31 (PDT)

that line of response is so typical of Dr. Gail because just last week she told my friend that my friend was
exhibiting obsessive behaviour everytime my friend thought about her ex friend. I wonder then what is
beyond obsessive or if there is such a beyondness because my whole existence is based on my old friend.
- Thursday, April 22, 2004 at 13:49:55 (PDT)

undermined by godsend

- Thursday, April 22, 2004 at 13:40:12 (PDT)

Johnny Hollywood took some of that big rock and roll money and bought a Porsche Boxter and then named it cassie because he had ordered it the color of Cassies eyes.

I think this is quite obsesive said Doctor Gail.
- Thursday, April 22, 2004 at 12:28:37 (PDT)

Johnny Hollywood doubled the doses of geritol his granny was taking so she would have the energy to sew the white wedding dress together when he convinced Linda to marry him then he went to carson perrie scott and walmart to register so the guests of the wedding could have a clue of what to buy the cute couple if they were not going to give livestock as a gi ft
- Thursday, April 22, 2004 at 12:26:20 (PDT)

"i deny the alligation" said Johnny Hollywood "I would never dream of doggie stylin' Miss Jessica shes to damn hot and I wanna look at the art of her britneyness he said into the mic
the judge looked at pictures of Jessica and agreed Johnny Hollywood was right

Johnny Hollywood is always right and right above the law said Berthas mother from the stands
and Johnny Hollywood knew there would be trouble

then the state brought in the new evidence

the eightteen thousand dollars worth of film Johnny Hollywood had spent on photos of Cassandra
it looked like Johnny Hollywood was wrong here but when his new attorney finished with her speechs and explainations it was obvious that Johnny Hollywood did not spend the eighteen thousand dollars on film it was all taken on the camera in his mind and as he kept thinking about her the microchip in his brain projected the vision of this goddess to the thought monitoring reciver that the government had watching his thoughts twenty-four seven and they printed his visions which were all her everyone of them and when the printing of all of Johnny Hollywoods visions were finished the government had spent the eighteen large on photos of a very sweet girl as a matter of fact.

"Dismissed" said the Judge and went home to watch more tele vision
- Thursday, April 22, 2004 at 12:21:05 (PDT)

"What is wrong, Johnny Hollywood?" asked the downstairs maid who was cheating on him before the race began

"Someone is pulling in another direction, someone has a curse on you Johnny Hollywood
someone is trying to cause harm to our hero" said the gypsy woman

I met her at the "get to know your ho seminar" in clarksville I bet its her that heartbreaker" Johnny Hollywood said

"Or maybe the second guitar player,you know that little bitch is still mad because you play better and make fun of the way he dances with the guitar" said the newest member of the cult who was assigned to the shave the sacrafical kitty kitty duty.

Just then Johnny Hollywoods caseworker called and said "You better not be hurting no kittys over there Johnny"

Someone was pulling in another direction someone was causing a slightly noticable power up
someone was using magic

Johhny Hollywood could eat kyptonite and spit it out into the gypsys hole he didnt give a fuckski no matter
but he needed to power up and he raised the bounty on Tina to twenty five welfare solos or twenty five hundred dollars and a used nineteen sixtys black and white television that only got the Jerry Springer station unless it rained.

I need to power up Said Johnny Hollywood as he became weeker

"Oh No hes going to die" said the lunatic fringe as Johnny Hollywood done a decent sized line off thier ass

Johnny Hollywood was still getting weaker like samson when he went to the lindenhurst hair cutting dive next to old eagle and the laundrymat when the bitch butched his freedom freakflag

"Johnny Hollywood needs to power up" Said Special "K" Johnnys personal head nurse

Dr. Gail concured

Johnny Hollywood needed to power up on the Tina crack sore milk

"The milk of Tina? thats the only thing this guy drinks" asked the Phycisians assitant

"Like it was red bull" said special K

"No way he drinks gallons of coffee a day" said the fat guy who never told anyone the secret donut reciepe but Johnny Hollywood one day when Johnny and the ghost of his brother got the greaseball drunk.

"And did he get creme in those gallons of coffee each day" asked special K the sexgoddess generic marsha brady clone meets gangsta barbie in the miday sun

"NO never"said grease ball

"Thats where the milk of crackwhore comes in,he puts it in his coffee he would drink it straight if he had a fountain like the fountian of youth only the Tina fountian that is what he is dependant on he needs the milk of Tina or he will die" Said the pyshisist who works at dairy Queen "and he has me put it in his blizzards for a nominal service charge
- Thursday, April 22, 2004 at 12:06:24 (PDT)

Johnny Hollywood was slipping out of the hypnosis
fading back into it
back and forth back and forth

"What is the secret code Johnny?" asked the russian mail order bride that showed up two years to late.

and Johnny told her like he would have told anyone

"The secret code is Bertha
Bertha is the password
Bertha,Berthachrist, berthaspice and Berthasgreatbigass" Johnny Hollywood said in a monitone voice

"What is a Bertha?" asked dr. gail and the russo bitch simotainisly

"A Bertha is a generic blonde or bleach blonde otherwise known as a barbie" said Johnny Hollywood with another dose of monitone drone words.

- Thursday, April 22, 2004 at 11:38:36 (PDT)

While Johnny Hollywood rubbed sweet berthas feet she looked in the newspaper for a free give away anything
When we heard all the comotion we thought somebody was dying
"She really cuts a shine" Said Berthas momma
as if she was from the south

Editors note {she might be from the south but at least she don't have the sicking england accent that makes me want to puke} "Oh but you can listen to a mesikin all day huh" said the opposing editor

"Only if shes calling my name and saying oh se,or buying my car" said the editor.

"Thar she blows" hollered Mrs. Wilson as she milked the cows in order from large to small

There it was the free give away for a kitty
what a wonderful surprise
so they loaded up the truck and went to beverly no just over yonder.

and guess what it was such a coincidence the man giving away the kitty was Sherrys first pimp so this was a very special kitty indeed
and what a better kitty for the sacraficial ritual upcoming event

"I almost hate to kill kitty kitty because it is all yellow like Tina" Said Johnny Hollywood as he called the newspaper to place the add for a bounty on Tina
"Oh Tina this and Tina that shut the fuck up asshole" said the nice lady who answers the phones all day at the local newspaper
not to be confused with the loca musica

Meanwhile Dr. Gail had Johnny Hollywood under hypnosis
"Why do you want to kill kitty kitty Johnny Hollywood?"
Give me Tina and the kitty kitty lives" Said Johnny Hollywood now making the situation worse by taking a hostage causing the hot blonde copologist to lose respect for him.

"A mere runner up to the real thing" Johnny Hollywood said to the postal worker
she was fat she was black and she thought Johnny Hillbillywood was crazy everyday he praticed his ill attemps of humour out on her and everyday he failed then there was the incident where Johnny Hollywood using only a bucket of chicken, lured the postal workers welfare recieptant daughters back to the studio to be the new hoo hoo girls . so she was still mad at him about that too.
- Thursday, April 22, 2004 at 11:21:26 (PDT)

Oh Sweet Bertha
would you put on the french maid outfit and clean the basement for me
oh sweet bertha would you baby please help me sort my songs and see if theres any that will get us a nice spread in lake forrest where I might almost never cheat on you with Lisette
except for in my dreams
oh sweet bertha
would you cook some speggitti
- Thursday, April 22, 2004 at 10:54:38 (PDT)

Dr. Gail sounded like she was about to crack as she summerized "So you named a guitar after her you,wear a cross with yours and her hair tied around it and you think shes god? why cant see that you are in love with her and quit asking me to sew a white wedding dress together for crack whore Barbie

"I'm about done with her shit thank you" Johnny Hollywood said looking away from the microphone.

"Thats so nice Johnny Hollywood, going to settle down and start a new life with the right one?THEN WHY THE HELL DO YOU HAVE A TWENTY-FIVE DOLLAR REWARD OUT FOR TINA THE CRACK WHORE?" Gail looked as though she was going to shit herself.

"Look Docski, Dont call my favorite blonde a crack whore for one and its a 25 hundred dollar reward
that I'm offering,and besides crackwhores can change just they become retarded at what point?" Johnny Hollywood said trying sound respectable.

The men in the white coats came in and measured Johnny Hollywood for the straight jacket
"Which prison did you niggas earn your nursing degrees from? DiD I ever show you my Martha Stwart pot? Johnny Hollywood asked as he displayed the twenty-five dollar light green boiling pot with a nice chrome looking lid
"It also doubles as a pot to cook raimen brand noodles in"

"Get that pot out of this office,there are no lighthouses on it at all" Said Gail

"She really has a problem with the light houses dont" she said nigger number one.

"Man you aint doin' nuthin right you aint gonna find Tina crack sores no way fer shure, You aint gotta put out no reward and we knowed you aint got that money up that kinda money who you foolin' and it aint fer love she could'nt make your heart stop even fer a little while like Jessica do, Now listen cracker ass white boy all you gotta do is hide her needles and crack pipe and she'll be yours forever even get a regular job at a dollar store and only do her ho'in part time" said nigger Jim as he finished mopping up the blood off the floor.

"Is gail Italian?" asked mojo number one as it was rising rising

Just then Bertha {the original Bertha not a generic substitute}let Charie Manson outta his cage and handed him an old flat top guitar hoping he would do the right thing and smash it on the tree but he stared into the beach boys "Little Surfer Girl"

It was a magical night your sister was still a nasty ho and me and you were having a candle lite dinner under the stars on the beach as the waves splashed against the sand like it was a great big cat box
at the little restraunt miss 2002 worked at as a waitress
Heres a girl whos job title was waitress and she was a waitress not a stripper not a dancer I love her

You brought me here to make her jealose yelled Miss Jerry springerski

time moved forward Johnny snuk out on the crazy bitch leaving her with the check
flying down the road in a new corvette the color of Cassies eyes that he bought with the money from winning the lottery
then he woke up from the dream

His head was down on Gails desk

"You gottA get a Job Johnny Hollywood I cant maRRIAGE console you for free all the time Gail told him

"I'm not even married" said welfare Johnny
- Thursday, April 22, 2004 at 07:38:03 (PDT)

He's only a kid
who the
FUCK AM I kidding!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?

Wow, that venture needs to slide off into an abyss, rot and die. My God, if only he were more mature.
*Everything* I need.
I swear.

No amount of pizza or straight-from-the-pint
ice cream
can take that away
That's twice in one day
I'm batting a thousand

when what I need's a home run
Chickpeas and Lentils
- Wednesday, April 21, 2004 at 22:01:22 (PDT)

I have a problem
with a groove
that I seem to
be in and the
only way out
is to quit
living in sin
- Wednesday, April 21, 2004 at 17:18:32 (PDT)

The guilt eats away at the lining of my stomach
while all along I sit here with nothing to do
my thoughts are too focused and not a damn thing
is getting done that I need to have finished. I
have no more tears to cry out and this affects the
earth tormendously considering that it is my tears
that provide the rain we experience every other day
where I live; I wonder how long it will take to all dry up even though there still is much to cry about now that the guilt has taken its toll on me.
- Wednesday, April 21, 2004 at 17:02:12 (PDT)

I love you ....... you know I do ... .../.......
- Wednesday, April 21, 2004 at 16:37:40 (PDT)

I only want you
no one else will do
I only care about us
its a must
there has to be an us
I only love everything that is you
theres nothing to be confused
I only love you
- Wednesday, April 21, 2004 at 16:30:09 (PDT)

alrighty then
you always say that
- Wednesday, April 21, 2004 at 16:00:26 (PDT)

I visit you
you visit me
words are what we have together there here
what if we could have a real conversation one day
I dont know what about unless maybe we could talk about words
- Wednesday, April 21, 2004 at 15:58:59 (PDT)

A lsave yet again,
aint life grand.
- Wednesday, April 21, 2004 at 10:29:16 (PDT)

Smoke me

- Wednesday, April 21, 2004 at 10:27:15 (PDT)

drink me
- Wednesday, April 21, 2004 at 07:31:36 (PDT)

the wind tells me you are mine
the song says this is no lie
the moon has disapeared from the sky
and your voice is all I need
my love for you I could never hide
your warmth is all I need
you and me
there is a world full of signs
you are all I need
I hold onto the cross
with no rose
I hold on to your memory
before your love
your love
I wont let it go
- Wednesday, April 21, 2004 at 05:26:17 (PDT)

yesterday when I talked to you on four twenty
you are the one that gets my high
today is st. garbage day and its time to throw away my mind
for now I do not hold you close and my heart will shurely die
I would pray to God to have you always
but would you answer that prayer
yesterday when I called you up
I forget to tell you I love you guts a hundred and one time
maybe because you intoxicate me so
I can't exactly think right

- Wednesday, April 21, 2004 at 05:16:33 (PDT)

I thank you for making me realize my own reality
Extinct of my own vitality
I feel no pain, for knowledge is all I gain
You would be a wonderful person to grow with
Who knew our love would be a myth?
Meant to be what was believed, a friendship gone, I cannot conceive
I just wanted to thank you for teaching me
That we truly weren't meant to be
I realized through loving you, a message to everyone, no matter what you do,
To your own heart be true.
- Tuesday, April 20, 2004 at 16:17:14 (PDT)

I thank you for making me realize my own reality
Extinct of my own vitality
I feel no pain, for knowledge is all I gain
You would be a wonderful person to grow with
Who knew our love would be a myth?
Meant to be what was believed, a friendship gone, I cannot conceive
I just wanted to thank you for teaching me
That we truly weren't meant to be
I realized through loving you, a message to everyone, no matter what you do,
To your own heart be true.
Maria Sherman
- Tuesday, April 20, 2004 at 16:16:58 (PDT)

Whatda you mean your taken
you bitch
you have lead me on this entire time and I dumped whats her face cause you said we was meant to be together and now your taken
you heart breaker
you vixen
I guess causing me pain makes you happy
I wish I was dead I am sick of this cruel world and this shit hand life has dealt me
you have your cake and eat it too walk on my feelings when I only wanted you
miss mind fuck
I have wasted my heart for nothing
oh poor me
I love you so much
shut the fuck up
- Tuesday, April 20, 2004 at 13:37:24 (PDT)

"Sweet Ass Blues"

My Babys got a sweet ass
nice and round
my babys got a sweet ass
the best I have found
My Babys got a sweet ass
the only one I need
My babys got a sweet ass
the best I have ever seen
my babys got a sweet ass
I love her I think
my babys got a sweet ass
in this I believe
- Tuesday, April 20, 2004 at 13:28:36 (PDT)

I will not release the spell I have on her for nothing in this or the next world
I love her more each 4 20
it is her dank ass that intoxicates me
- Tuesday, April 20, 2004 at 06:56:39 (PDT)

alrighty then its time to let it go because afterall it is as obvious as it's going to get that in no way shape or form are you him or him and you certainly ain't workin for them and I see this now.
- Monday, April 19, 2004 at 19:54:19 (PDT)

What you ask is to much
I have nothing to focus on because I do not know who the fuckski you is baby now do YOU get it?
I need a vision to concentrate and release the energy to
you do not want this directed to the wrong person do you
- Monday, April 19, 2004 at 19:26:15 (PDT)

the energy that you are sending I am receiving
and therefore I am connected even though we should
never have been separated in the first place.

i need to be what I am no matter whether
it invokes attraction from the opposite
maybe you are on my wave length or maybe
I am on your frequency level but one thing
is for sure that we are communicating from
a distance by gazing up at the stars
- Monday, April 19, 2004 at 16:27:41 (PDT)

you just don't get it do you.........I love you so much it makes me sick and I need you so much I think I will die without you and I want you so much that I could burst from the orgasm building up inside me over you...........therefore love me now, need me immediately, and want me tonight ... I will be waiting for you so make your communication do you get it???
- Monday, April 19, 2004 at 12:33:00 (PDT)

Que the Actress
- Monday, April 19, 2004 at 11:59:54 (PDT)


I check my email for a sign of you
theres three hundred garbage spams a week its true
I block everything from dot com and dot net too
and today four spamskis have still gotten thru
still no word from you

I ask you to marry me and your sister to
you both have issues we could never make it thru
still I would try but for you it never would do
so I think I'll find something else to do
- Monday, April 19, 2004 at 11:40:50 (PDT)

can you see love
the feeling
what it does inside the mind or heart I mean the actual
whatever is considered love not a chemical that causes
a reaction not people displaying it
really it
can you see it
- Monday, April 19, 2004 at 11:28:41 (PDT)

“Never Thought”

Time once shared, my
life stripped bare. A reason
to carry on, fighting to right
this wrong.

Tattered… A broken
me you’ll never know.
Put on a smile so these
scars don’t show.

Never thought it would end
this way. Never listen to what
I have to say. Never thought I’d
see the day when my heart
runs cold and turns away.

Looked for you to
find me, thought you
would erase this
pain that binds me.

Thought you would wake
me from this dream. I hold
back my laugh as I burst at
the seams.

Never thought it would end
this way. Never want me
and turn away. Never thought
I’d see the day when my heart
runs cold and turns away.

I’ve waited… Oh... I’ve
waited, waited for
something that never comes.
- Monday, April 19, 2004 at 11:20:29 (PDT)

"I thought you said satan had a muffled microphone male voice like a television monster on a superhero cartoon"

It was a beautiful spring day and the wind from the bombings on the other side of the planet was pushing homeless peoples shopping carts full of garbage down the street and flipping them over before they slammed into the armored car Johnny Hollywood was spending his reclusive days in watching Jerry Springer wishing he knew trailer park women like Mr Jerry Springer knew even with three trailer parks in round lake Illinois he was still lacking in the trailer trash hall of fame deptartment.
Right in the middle of his show two men in goverment issue suits started knocking on the side of Johnny Hollywoods armored car "Mr. Johhny Hollywood,you have an agreement!"
Knock knock knock.

"ain't this a pisser" said
Johnny Hollywood who was tring to save gas
as he started the engine and drove away
"where to go where to go? maybe I should just roll on to Oklahoma
where you only know you are in a town if you see a walmart ie{hey theres a walmart I bet this is a town}and look for my wife Olivia he could see her in red six inch heels or pink to match her eye lids and skin tone schwingski deluxe as she clicked her heels together there was no toto in this picture no doggies at all and no cotoyte ugly either super model forshure he thought later decieding to go live down by the river like a corny saturday night live skit and he played the song one more saturdaynight to get in the mood for the entire loser mindfuck even though it was monday afternoon.
- Monday, April 19, 2004 at 11:19:29 (PDT)


Johnny Hollywood spent the entire night locked in the armored car so that even though he signed a contract for sweet Doctor Gail to remove his brain and try to get all thought of Tina out of it
He was going back on his word
each time someone called him or knocked on the side of the armored car he gave some bull shit excuse why he was not having the scheduled brain surgery as planned

Doctor Gail was getting angry calling him over and over
when he finally picked up
she went off "Johnny Hollywood you sir are a RENIGGER
you have renigged on our deal and I will take legal action" she shouted in to the little microphone on shit shitbox cell phone.

"Oh yeah, I can sue you to doc, using the "R" word"
Johnny Hollywood tarded right back.

Nobodys taking nothing out of my brain what if you take the minor penetonic scale out and then my guitar playing sounds like hall and oates and never attracts another bleach blonde ever?

Gail talked soothing into the shitbox cell phone "Noones taking the minor penetonic from your memory Johnny I'm Just gonna take your brain out and remove Tina"

"What did I agree to?"
Johnny Hollywood thought "...and Tinas not a bleach blonde shes a real blonde I thought I was going to consoling to sort the importance of bleach blonde from blonde and find out why I would rather have a bleach blonde most of the time unless the moon was somewhere it shouldnt be and why some red heads eclipse the entire collection of blondes and bleach blondes making me insane,not to have a marriage consoler remove my brain and guinea pig her way into a lawsuit."

"You agreed to this Johnny Hollywood now quit bieng a little baby" Gial retorted
- Monday, April 19, 2004 at 10:52:52 (PDT)

while everything is changing around me
it is my love for you that stays the same
- Sunday, April 18, 2004 at 18:16:30 (PDT)

peace baby
- Sunday, April 18, 2004 at 15:52:47 (PDT)

if I was'nt in hillbilly land last week
I would've said
Happy Easter Eve
- Sunday, April 18, 2004 at 07:38:19 (PDT)

Travis, wherefore art thou?

- Sunday, April 18, 2004 at 00:35:25 (PDT)

yeh....we finally agree on something!
see yah soon...cause i am tired of
being treated like shit by my dud e!
- Saturday, April 17, 2004 at 19:41:24 (PDT)

ithinkyoupissedyourretardgirlfriendoff trav
- Saturday, April 17, 2004 at 19:22:56 (PDT)

oh yes I to want to be inside of you so badly
because even though your poetry is a complete abortion
your the only one that almost likes me in the world
ruining my attempted reclusivness a little but I think its good that you are so full of shit and think we are going to connect when it will never in a million years happen because
um because
you fuck up my flow and
the end result is that both our poetry becomes a total abortion
thus we are one
we have that in common
soulmates til death
me and you only
in a world of shit
so nevermind Tina
well maybe not never mind tina
but at least never mind Gina then
and christina
fuck them
its me and you only in this world and someday when you get tired of bieng treated like shit by your dude
we will live happily ever after in space
yes space just me and you
or in the woods in space where it will only be me and you
and some weird tree people and bugs and dirt but I wont mind I will just pretend you are tina and we are in a car any car it wont make a bit of differance or

so yes go ahead and get you tattoo of my name on your snatch a soreous
because I accept the agreement
you are my bitch yum yum
- Saturday, April 17, 2004 at 17:20:07 (PDT)

hurry quick run and call a tow truck
Berthas air conditioned John Deere tractor over turned out in the field and it could be two or three years before they build condos there
ru n!!
- Saturday, April 17, 2004 at 17:09:54 (PDT)

but we both know that could never happen because of your mental illness
- Saturday, April 17, 2004 at 16:58:41 (PDT)

I may be taken but
my heart belongs to you
I am fucking serious
I am so hot for you
I need you inside of me
I cannot bear to live life
without you by my side
I wish there was something
that I could do to make you mine
if only there was some type of spell
to place over you until you come around

Can you picture us on a blanket
in the middle of the woods with
candles of every colour surrounding us
while we submerse ourselves in pleasure

- Saturday, April 17, 2004 at 15:24:04 (PDT)

my love for you runs deep like roots do for a tree
today I have thought about nothing but you and I
I want you so bad that if I could I would wish myself
to be there with you giving you the exctasy that you need
- Saturday, April 17, 2004 at 14:56:42 (PDT)

"Badgering the witness"

"Most crackwhores have some sort of dental problems" Johnny Hollywood said into the microphone

"That is all,you my step down" said the new attorney

Johnny Hollywood steped down from the witness stand and went back to his seat.

Our next witness Margree

Margree a tall middle aged blonde looking halfway cute took her place in the penaty box
She raised her hand and milked the bible
the newely appointed attorney walked over to her and said "Margeree Did you ever have a live poetry reading inside a taxi cab?"

"Yes I did I was one the way to Ohare airport to go back to Canada and that bastard there started babbling on about oil spills when I just told him I was a steel line pipe inspector"

Johnny Hollywood put on his groucho shades and moustache to try to throw the jury off track and whispered into a blonde he didnt even know's ear
"I thought she was a narc or something"
The newly appointed attorney then asked Margree if she tiped Johnny Hollywood and she replied "Yes a Dollar"
the crowd gasped
the judge then asked her sweetness " What about the freakin' tolls, You stuck up biotch?"

Margree stepped down from the stands and stuck out her tounge at Johnny Hollywood
he then whispered into the unknown blondes ear that her toungue didnt look half as good as Jessica Knutsons pink toungue.

Next witness

"The fat pregent trailer park women entered the courtroom

The fat pregent blonde girl was the first to the stand
"Did Johnny Hollywood ever ask you out?"

Yes ! she replied
that is all
next witness
The pregent mesikin whos face still looks like she works the french fry machine even though its been two years since she had that gig took the stand
"did Johnny Hollywood ever ask you out?"

Yes ! he did hes no good

the new attorney then said and what did you reply?
"I asked him where,and he said the Olive Garden"
and I said I don't think so"

the judge then asked the fat pregent mesikin whos face was severly cratered with acne "So if he would have said Taco Bell then you would have went?

"Shure" said the fat mesikin

Johnny Hollywood was again called to the stands
" Johnny what happened there?" asked the states attorney

"I think shes Iranian anyway" said Johnny in defense

more obease women entered the coutroom
next witness
"The next witness smelled like a bottle no a 55 gallon drum of cologne was dumped on her
she took her place on the stand as it colapsed

when the dust cleared she was resting her big ass on a fork lift going on and on about how " Johnny Hollywood said he was going to take her out parting one saturday and she got dressed for nothing
then the next heffer was again telling a no show story about how he was supposed to take her to the movie house to see fifty first dates

the next witness' was undercover officers Kim and what the fucks her name telling the sad tale of how they partied in Johnnys dirty filthy basement or how he didnt wanna take a credit card for the five dollar fare to go cop a little rock

It wasnt looking good for Johnny Hollywood
in fact if this kept up no respectable crack whore in thirty square miles would have anything to do with him
- Saturday, April 17, 2004 at 14:42:22 (PDT)

"The ink blotter tests are going well" Gail said thru the intercom to her obease black male supervisor

Johnny Hollywood ate all of the ink blotter thinking he could overdose and end his miserable life without Hot Hot Hot Tina
"you cant die from eating paper Johnny Hollywood"
said gail out of disgust
"You are suppose to guess what the ink spot may be"
Johnny Hollywood didnt care anymore he already was severly depressed and sweet Bertha wouldnt hang up her phone so he could call her and be mentally abused
she was playing more of her evil wicked mind games and even Johnnys welfare caseworker Anna with the hair that looked like yellow roses said maybe bertha is really an old fat guy named Billy sitting in his underware at the other end of the keyboard pretending he was brittney spears as he tried to homo his way into the naget hall of fame with his buddy "Z"
I object said the states attorney as a small bag of white powder fell out of its suit pocket
the judge looked mean as she recited her nickleback favorite
"I like your pants around your feet"
her husband the copsucker state trooper just glared he was ready to divore her but hadnt drained her bank account yet
I move to recess said Berthas gynocoligist
- Saturday, April 17, 2004 at 14:05:30 (PDT)

"Failure to communicate"

I take the telephone and carefully place it on the pavement and smash it with a 3 foot piece of steel pipe with a 3/4 inch steel plate welded to the end of it watching the pieces fly into the light blue sky
I can no longer hear you bitch constantly
- Saturday, April 17, 2004 at 12:01:52 (PDT)

Miss Pussyspank was playing real hard to get this time
avoiding Johnny Hollywood and dening his love and the fact that they were in fact soul mates and she was his soulbride.

Yeah buddy real hard to get was her code name.

But did Johnny Hollywood notice? he didnt know her name let alone her number
and at that very moment of her clusterfuck mindgame reason for existance
Johnny Hollywood was having a huge cutback on whores and was laying off dozens of them while getting ready for summer when some real decent blondes come into season dreading august when the red heads are again in season

thus asking himself are the redheads in season now in april? they shure are plentiful.
and how does this parrell the life of a Gibson S.G.?
- Saturday, April 17, 2004 at 11:54:01 (PDT)

Johnny Hollywood signed the waivers Dr. Gail Sholtzski needed in case she fucked up when she took out Johnny's brain and they had a verbal agreement that it was cool if she removed his brain and tried to take out all memories of Tina even if she had to remove most of his brain and shit can it if while doing all this she would clear up that pesky ear infection he had
so all the paper work was finished and Gail was filming the event with her new Thomas Kincaid signature light house mini cam.
what do disco and your mothers ass have in common and why do you hate disco is no longer the password
- Saturday, April 17, 2004 at 11:44:54 (PDT)

don't get mad because my line is busy
just keep trying as someday you may get through
until then though there is always email!
- Saturday, April 17, 2004 at 10:33:39 (PDT)

"Oh Baby, Nice Credit!"

I take the telephone and throw it high into the air

splash it sayes on re e ntry

- Saturday, April 17, 2004 at 10:15:04 (PDT)

all of a sudden Johnny Hollywood realized that Mimi
with her barbed wire tattoo on her arm like she was hepititis barbie was the director of his loser fuck life and beyond that
he knew not to try and make a flying machine out of bongs because it didnt work last time

Shouldnt mimis tattoo say mom or cross threaded lesbian mafia union? Johnny Hollywood thought

maybe he better she miss hugemounga fuck over to retrieve his soulmateski from the bus station
and find out how her seven hundred mile ride with the eighty five niggers went.

naw she never even called he thought and then he tried to remember if cheese went on a pizza before or after the sauce
speaking of sauce "Wheres Jessica"

which side of your brain is Jessica on asked Johnny Hollywoods overpaid marriage doctor "Gail"
she erased the memory of the squall to easily
Johnny didnt know what to say if he told her the truth Both she was shure not to share the cheese cake

then she began the list wheres Lisette in your brain?
wheres Tina

"Thats a good question you cats wanna help me find Tina?" Johnny Hollwood asked into the microphone so even granny who always evesdropped could hear
but did it help anything did anyone want to help Johnny Hollywood out with his blues problem here nade
negative no body cared if he ever looked into Tinas yellow eyes again

So fuck you all Johnny Hollywood said as he made a surf board out of a nice gibson S.G. I shure hope this thing floats

If I ever get off this Island......
yeah I'll meet you in space as long as there is a space
- Saturday, April 17, 2004 at 10:01:41 (PDT)

While buttercups waited all day at the bus station for Johnny Hollywood.

Johnny Hollywood woke up on the glassy beach of the island he now knew he would never get off of
even the shells were sharp and jagged along with the other debrie and dead things he picked himself up out of the filth and sand wiping the sand off of his Cassandra tattoo he tried to gather the broken parts of the flying machine he made to get back to civilation
or at least to a beach that had a nice blonde at

Tired of eating sea weed he logged onto his computer to try and buy some amoxicillan with a check from a very covient mexicain pharmacy that sold the stupid shit he needed he in the states
it was'nt overseas but it was still medication
and hopefully the mexicains did'nt use water to make amoxician he thought
Its ok said the beached whale next to him if the mexicans did use thier water I will eat them for you
"Oh my gosh, shes going to eat the mexicans"
Johnny thought.
Johnny Hollywood then wondered why the mesikins had bad water and where all that began musta been before the almo that week he didnt go to school in 5th grade maybe that history teacher might have just skipped a chapter she was such a slob her house a filthy place he wished he had never went to her scouts tardfest and seen it because later in life he would have married a sow just like her it was destined to be and he was rid of her and no one died
but speaking of almo Johnny Hollywood started thinking about how hot Jackie was the nice girl that worked at almo and maybe she would have a nice rental paddle boat and come save him.

go on with your life the beached whale burped

then Johnny Hollywood realized thier were heffers everywhere and he could be hugh heffer if only that retarded bitch that agreed to let the band duct tape the camera to her head were present the photo shoot could commence
- Saturday, April 17, 2004 at 09:44:57 (PDT)

everything including our love is pre-determined
so my advice to you would be to stop fighting it
and start accepting it so that we can be together soon
- Saturday, April 17, 2004 at 08:27:40 (PDT)

I now accept that you will have no part of a physical affair with me and that is only because you are not into the extra bs that will no doubt come with the physical affair. Would you ever consider an affair in space and if so then I am sure through the dirtyness of dean you can trace me...yah dig?
- Saturday, April 17, 2004 at 08:17:39 (PDT)

no matter where I go or what I think the fact remains that I will always love you in everything I do and say. It is too bad that our love was not elastic enough to stretch us through the unstable times. If it were I would have stood in the middle of the crossroads not scared because in time our love would come along and carry me over the mud
- Saturday, April 17, 2004 at 08:11:34 (PDT)

no matter what you think of yourself
you are comparable to all that is love
and don't you ever forget that !

- Saturday, April 17, 2004 at 08:06:31 (PDT)

crossroads empty
no angel in sight
- Friday, April 16, 2004 at 17:30:49 (PDT)

oh like I never figured that one out from the time you stood me up
- Friday, April 16, 2004 at 17:02:43 (PDT)

Hey how bout them there you think I could have a puff that there nan? Hey there what is up? Upstate or Uptown so take your pic.
- Friday, April 16, 2004 at 17:01:12 (PDT)

I know where I hail from and I can vision us there
you must see it too how could you not considering
you are involved in this too. The water is all
dried up and the landscape is gone but somewhere
near me there is a magic trail and a millpond. The
cost is clear let us move toward the crossroads and
then deeper into the open field. Our purpose for
ending up there is to mess around and then lie there
watching the night sky. Soon baby soon.

- Friday, April 16, 2004 at 16:57:58 (PDT)

and I aint going to no freakin bus stations either
- Friday, April 16, 2004 at 16:53:57 (PDT)

it cant be stopped
it cant be helped
oh theres a compass you brain dead brain fart thoughtless bitch
its all part of the Navigational system
it leads and everything else follows
yeah theres a compass alright and its set on Hot

and theres no way I going to live in the woods
when theres still a lake forest
- Friday, April 16, 2004 at 16:40:40 (PDT)

it is all about balance as far as I am concerned
because there is no way that you can tell me without lying, that a person can sail through life on the sailboat of life without knowing how to operate a compass. The balance becomes the fuel which fires
the soul and the soul cannot experience life without
this fuel for life itself is too big to sail around for free...ya dig?
- Friday, April 16, 2004 at 15:41:18 (PDT)

its hard to believe that you suffer from all that you say you do because when I talk to you you seem so in control of everything that you have that there is no way one would ever think that you are living in total blue and are being silenced by forces not real but real enough for you to think you cannot move forward in life without this strife.
- Friday, April 16, 2004 at 15:35:58 (PDT)

i wish i could relieve you of your pain
first i would take you from the hospital
and take you into the back woods to live
i would help you with taking your meds and
make sure that each day you were fed food
instead of the hate currently being served
where you are residing at the padded place
- Friday, April 16, 2004 at 15:29:35 (PDT)

"Hail,my much more than fine Jessica"
jOHNNY hOLLYWOOD SAID INTO THE mic that was stabing him in the back while he played the thirteenth solo

"It all sounds like shit" said the newly reformed welfare grant payed for twice over monkey farm resident nurse as she shook the dust off her enlongated ass, an ass of asses here,an asses ass,and another ass for a face.
That would be why she almost got the part of Nurse Ass Face in an old episode of Mash

Johnny Hollywood then called the escort service and requested a nice blonde postal worker who can kill an aligator and skin it without staining her uniform
to be sent over in time to make dinner but like always he got hang up on before he could charge it to his bosses card.You Suck mooooo the fat bitch from under the porch she was stuck there for weeks
causing the hot crack whore to think she was hearing those voices again
last time it was bells

as soon as the boxelder tea was done
the upstairs stripper/maid was on the roof hollering for someone to call 911 because the rusted coat hanger abortion gig was'nt going as well as planned.

Johnny Hollywood was forever stuck on the Island so far away from civilization
buying his tattoo equipment off ebay
praticing up on the heffer guenie pigs that where so fucked up on viks they didnt care if it was a goat they slept with.

Nowhere was a supermodel insight
coming to save him.
- Friday, April 16, 2004 at 15:15:26 (PDT)

what are you talking about honey?

- Friday, April 16, 2004 at 11:57:59 (PDT)

I am all alone
with the ring
tone in my ear
the email is
open and waiting
for mail

you are the thrill of a lifetime
a light of hope and the knock of
opportunity that is waiting for me
- Friday, April 16, 2004 at 11:35:49 (PDT)


Mice and monkey,wheel in cage

test you until your trained

toxic rodent losing rat race

tastes like chicken,shreded snake

infectious disease research cell freezing

lost in a maze cheesy albino with lesions

Rat brain in space,sattlite reception

double dose of cloned mutation

micrscopic study prevention

genetic strain of humane intervention

from the brain and seminal fluid

of the rat comes acid phosphate

dying in a rat trap,last in the rat race

not really giving a rats ass

I smell a rat in space

domestic lab rat died here insane

rat pack,rat patrol,rat breath,cat bait

dying of strictnine poisioning

rat acid ,rats bane
- Friday, April 16, 2004 at 11:15:05 (PDT)

my new best friend

You pick up the telephone and before you can say hello, I say to you "I bet you are relived to know that I did the right thing?". I look back now on what happened back then between us and it makes me stop and think how even though it was the right thing to do I still have increased my chances of not ever being right with all that is around me and this is simply just one big shame that I will never let go of no matter how hard you try through spell to make me.

- Friday, April 16, 2004 at 10:53:14 (PDT)

our physical relationship may becoming extinct but our love will live on forever because energy does not go extinct as it just simply changes form
- Friday, April 16, 2004 at 10:45:26 (PDT)

How could I refuse you?

- Friday, April 16, 2004 at 10:33:54 (PDT)

There is nothing better
- Friday, April 16, 2004 at 10:33:21 (PDT)

the guards finely chopped the bertha meds and put it all in nice lines and told Johnny Hollywood it was his turn

Johnny Hollywood told the guards he was'nt into the Bertha Medicaticion and they told him he had to do it unless he wanted to smoke it out of a dogs skull made into a water pipe but it smelled like a kidney dialisis center exploded and flooded out a hill billy meth lab in a 1972 dodge dart when the bertha meds were cooked in its natural form and adding battery acid with it only made it worse
the fat heffer women who lied to each other and said they had all been with Johnny Hollywood in the waterbuffalo style had every entrance blocked and thier sweat had sealed the doors so there would be no air pockets

Johnny Hollywood knew he did not need any of the Bertha Medicaticions and if anything would become wrong with him he was shure that a nice skinny blonde would fix it right up in no time but how could he lose the required dosage in the rolls of fat the sweat hogs had on display without bieng noticed?
maybe he could pretend he was looking for part of a sandwich in one of the heffers middle rolls and leave the bertha meds there but he would have to put it in his nose with out it getting stuck on a booger and without it getting into his system long enough to get over by the nasty sweat hogs to conceal the fact that he did not believe sniffing the bertha meds to be hip
but if it was uncut coke he would be happy to snort thirty seven lines of a nice little strippers ass in a heart beat.

Then it hit Johnny
who are these heffers and how are they connected to the C.T.L.M.U.?

Johnny Hollywood woke up three weeks later rowing the rice boat up the Bertha canal on his way to the Phillipines to get his dental work done for almost nothing
he had two crack whores with him on the rice boat who would 'nt help paddle for nothing and at the last truck stop they sold the trolling motor for crack because they was tired of "Working"
You could not even see the words "cat box" on the back of the rice boat because nigger jim had war-shed the rice boat so well it came right off.
- Friday, April 16, 2004 at 09:39:08 (PDT)

Something wicked whirling in the wind
takes my time and turns it toward the sun
break my balls but be my beautiful baby
grab my grey hair and give me to the ground
seduce me on the spot show me sexual situations
right the wrong and reward me with your rod!
- Friday, April 16, 2004 at 06:47:34 (PDT)

Someday I will make time to get to know you before you die.
but it of course will be on my terms as to what I need to
I am not sure that I would be able to handle much more information being jammed into my brain as it is liable to make me insane.
So just because I do not want to know you altogether does not mean I do not like you it just means I don't want to be insane.
Communication is an artform which does not have proper recognition especially considering that you and I talk through precognition.
I will choose the time when I want to get to know you and so let it be known that in the tenth month of our year in lord 2004, we three will be one if not through everything under the sun then it will be through a good cupa coffee at the bus terminal stop.

- Friday, April 16, 2004 at 06:39:30 (PDT)

reunions of any kind are always loaded with every emotion that one could possibily experience and for the most part every person goes through a wide variety of these emotions when they are involved in a reunion. To lessen the gap or distance beween these emotions so that during any given time a person will only experience a few appropriate and likeminded emotions, it is important to not have reunions and instead hang around other people more often so you can never lose sight of them.
- Friday, April 16, 2004 at 06:28:33 (PDT)

I always thought I was this way
when in fact my friends say I
was that way and only for awhile
until the day arrived where I
changed my style and from that
time on my friends did not know
who I was because they did not
have the pleasure of meeting you
- Friday, April 16, 2004 at 06:22:51 (PDT)

i have been swallowed by your love
whosh down the love tunnel I go
in search of my place

I cannot remember my past
I do not know who I am
I guess as you get older
so does everything else
and so when I say I know
I only know because it
ages too like I do
- Friday, April 16, 2004 at 06:19:58 (PDT)

Since our love has been on life support
there have been many sleepless nights
that I have had to endure in this place
I have posted my price on my forehead
but so far I have had no real offers
only laughter and mocking remarks
Someday is finally today and the day
has arrived where I really do feel bad
for what has happened to you after meeting me
and I must say that you fell hard and deep into
the hole in the ground which is also the same
hole that will lead anyone into the core, pit or
centre of my heart. You are so in love with something
about me that you are willing to give up everything including your life so that I can be free from the love you want to give me. What I say to this is that you talk non-sense when it comes to ending your life because you love me so much. Instead of going through the afterlife alone because of suicide, why do you not consider connecting with me permanently so that we can love each other the way we are meant to be loved every minute, day, noon, and night. If we do this now, we will increase our chances of living together in the afterlife and would that not be nice. Answer me now please as the Doctor's want to pull the plug on our love soon!
- Thursday, April 15, 2004 at 22:28:42 (PDT)

During my vacation
I tried to forget you
but the television said "You can not open Pandoras box up and close it again
and I wondered why then I tried to forget the whores
and the television again told me this
then I discovered the happiness I have been missing in life
other than Tina was keebler brand cookies strawberry cheese cake sandies will have to share a place on the cross with a sweet babe with a nice perm
so I tried to sleep and not dream about any girls I named guitars after but still did
and I am in recluse I tell myself to the point of berthachrist retardation
I will work at white castle with the other niggers
dance the nixon dance milk the crack whore
hitler will kill the monkeys we will dig for oil can I please eat margine out of Ratchels navel if the world is at war
if we are all going to die I ask god
she gets jealose
I write her shit poetry and flush it before she sees it I believe but she sees everything and climbs on me like yesterday

she is dank
she is a moist christ
I belive a 1979 porche 944 born in 1982

- Thursday, April 15, 2004 at 20:28:26 (PDT)

Kara Kara Kara
- Thursday, April 15, 2004 at 20:17:21 (PDT)


the white sky opens to blue
as the orange sun bleeds into the horizon
hiding the stars I have spent money on trying to get Ratchel's name spelled right
as I believe the con the the entire world will someday call out to the brightest star
"I wish upon RatShell" or to its left "I wish upon "Racheal" or to the right and just above it in this telescope
I could be looking at the movement of eye snot in a microscope
I could be drooling on a blonde who tomorrow will forget me and leave me like a bungee cord on the side of the highway
will the moon someday be forsale?
Who will pimp the moon? Will they be to chauvinistic and call the moon stupid bitch until the moon snaps and does some serious damage like malory in "Natural born killers"?
can I name the moon like it was a hamster?
I will name it Ratch or ratchet set or Rae
or miss 2002

and afterwards if you are mine but not locked inside the psych ward and you help me find my hear aka Miss Tina then I will be you valentine
unless you got a better plan
- Thursday, April 15, 2004 at 20:15:00 (PDT)

...just as I am sure you have beautiful, available young bachelorettes breaking down your door
this very instant

why are you so sweet
oh, God
you make it so difficult

my back teeth are floating

I want you on sterling silver platters
I want you even on Thursdays
I want you when you are rain-soaked
I want you through migraines
I want you when I can't see straight
when I'm changing lanes
giving out to charities
breaking pencils
rubbing out popscicle stains
snagging stockings
pouring coffee
bagging groceries
tripping up escalators
failing exams
on a couch
in bed

walking in my sleep
there's not ever ever ever
a moment

I would'nt

want you here

- Thursday, April 15, 2004 at 17:32:36 (PDT)

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- Thursday, April 15, 2004 at 17:09:47 (PDT)

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- Thursday, April 15, 2004 at 17:09:31 (PDT)

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my boyfriend wont write to me and read my stupid dribble co mmentary

- Thursday, April 15, 2004 at 17:09:14 (PDT)

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- Thursday, April 15, 2004 at 17:06:07 (PDT)

nevermind your lies
bring on the fat women
- Thursday, April 15, 2004 at 17:04:56 (PDT)

ok...I don't know...I give up...who was the ..... ....?
- Thursday, April 15, 2004 at 12:28:22 (PDT)

- Thursday, April 15, 2004 at 12:07:16 (PDT)

no mine doesn't have either of those names because it already has its own name which is eminem
- Wednesday, April 14, 2004 at 19:40:39 (PDT)

no as a matter of fact it has peavey and it is one of a kind considering I am no doubt the only person in the world who would glue their boyfriend's name onto a storage boxq
- Wednesday, April 14, 2004 at 19:36:12 (PDT)

seduce me with your eyes
stimulate my senses with your smile
captivate my attention with your voice
I've got all night as I am not on the clock
I want you on the blue carpet now please

- Wednesday, April 14, 2004 at 19:32:26 (PDT)

does the box say MARS HALL on it?
- Wednesday, April 14, 2004 at 18:09:46 (PDT)

Winner Winner Winner


Miss April 2004
- Wednesday, April 14, 2004 at 18:06:17 (PDT)

my love for you is stored in a box
and that box is buried in the basement
in a place where only the cat will find
it because of the litter I poured inside
- Wednesday, April 14, 2004 at 17:10:35 (PDT)

if I could change the past
I would go back and do you right

- Wednesday, April 14, 2004 at 16:56:29 (PDT)

because these words are only words today three years ago tomorrow three years from now
next week
last week
what is your thought process here
- Wednesday, April 14, 2004 at 16:42:20 (PDT)

one man down
increased risk
maybe I am losing
someone tell me now
How so is it that you
doubt my love for you
- Wednesday, April 14, 2004 at 16:39:38 (PDT)

come everybody get on the floor and do the water retaining sea cow dance
Mooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo !!!!!!
- Wednesday, April 14, 2004 at 16:32:32 (PDT)

There once was a troll who lived in the dirt
she was so nasty looking we told her dont take off yer shirt
she was ugly as could be
took her to the grayslake train station
and hoped she would die
but the ugly barf bag bitch
didnt get on the train and wave goodbye
she wanted to bitch about things
and ruin everyones high
Disco sucks and your mothers fat
- Wednesday, April 14, 2004 at 16:29:33 (PDT)

happy bertha day to ya all
- Wednesday, April 14, 2004 at 16:24:49 (PDT)

"How I Miss The Lovely Crack Whore"

The strands of brass
have fallen to the carpet from the pieces of the scrub pad shine like Her blonde hair in the morning sun reflecting all the answers in the heart
broken like the glass stem
pushing my mind back into nowhere without her warm
riper than you could ever be heat
uncaring one second gone forever the next
looking into the sun losing sight of her badge in the mirrored glare of christmas lights rehabilatating her cancerous and completly gone lungs.
The Crack Whore Poet
- Wednesday, April 14, 2004 at 16:23:02 (PDT)

you always say that in the spring
- Wednesday, April 14, 2004 at 15:52:13 (PDT)

take me
I am ripe and juicy
- Wednesday, April 14, 2004 at 15:33:54 (PDT)

Bagged,boxed and miscounted
the recycled tea of tasteless remorse
I have loved noone
with the exception of stabbing lies
like the sky steals the winds thoughts
as radio transmissions dance
thru the interlocking medias
scratching your eyes out with commercialism
you hold my hand as we buy thought

- Wednesday, April 14, 2004 at 13:32:43 (PDT)

dreams never come true
your lying againski
- Wednesday, April 14, 2004 at 13:07:07 (PDT)

no but he was
- Wednesday, April 14, 2004 at 12:59:01 (PDT)

coffe and beer
that shure narrows it down
I bet your blonde?
- Wednesday, April 14, 2004 at 10:51:31 (PDT)

are seacows like them there seamonke ys?
- Wednesday, April 14, 2004 at 10:37:02 (PDT)

if you are going to question my love for you then it must be alright if I ask you where your love is for me considering you haven't wrote a love poem to me or about me in 3 years.
- Wednesday, April 14, 2004 at 10:34:43 (PDT)

so you think I don't love you
even though I took the time
out of my schedule to meet
with you for coffee and beer
at everything under the su n?
- Wednesday, April 14, 2004 at 10:29:46 (PDT)

"never ending cat box problemento blues"

When you wake up in the morning and
one water retaining seacow tells
another water retaining seacow shes been with you but its a lie

You get the water retaining seacows spreading more than her water retaining seacow disease blues

I just play an E chord throughout because these water retaining seacows are'nt worth a whole song.
- Wednesday, April 14, 2004 at 09:51:20 (PDT)


I think your "love" for me is a lie
only because it is not "love" but a mind game you either "love" to play this mind game with me or it is a mind game you are playing with yourself,

because this is not "love"
not even long distance
it is very far from the definition
no matter what dictionary you look in or heart that could feel any type of feeling unless you compare this "love" to the minds that are manipulated with shock treatment and expermental meds inside a psych ward
You do not "Love"
I see no love here
just words
blah blah blah
- Wednesday, April 14, 2004 at 08:56:26 (PDT)

to do what?
- Tuesday, April 13, 2004 at 13:00:38 (PDT)

someone will
step up
to the plate
- Monday, April 12, 2004 at 16:57:54 (PDT)

my balance is so off that making love we could not
getting older can wear a person down if they are
not careful about the wrinkles, weight, and frown.
I know its not too late so soon I will bounce back
and when that time comes you will be the first to know.
- Monday, April 12, 2004 at 07:38:37 (PDT)

call off the search
time to go home
from the extreme
time is running out
nothing left to give
sending it back too
heartbroken beyond repair
no turning back now
I can no longer care
do not worry at all
once you find
what it is that
you are looking for
you should never
lose sight of it
if it is to always
remain important to you

When you take more then
you give it is a sign that you are not aware of what life is really suppose to be about. Living life in its truest form requires a person to place less emphasis on taking from life and instead focus their life on giving to life.

There is no such place where this fantasy does exist except for your mind for quite sometime. You will be better off from the loss that will result of letting the fantasy go. Your needs are greater than what can be given now or ever. No amount of time can fix this this time. Just stop what you are doing and free them at once before it is all too late.

Words put together mean more to you at this point. I tried may times in person but that was simply not enough. Our encounter elsewhere proved to be a connection of secrecy that even you and I knew nothing of. I always suspected something was brewing between us but I just never knew what. What I did suspect was of the overwhelming attraction I had for you and its realness even inside a fantasy. I wrote to you daily in hopes that you would catch on and write back. I am am convinced now more then ever that you did and have because here we still are loving one another but from apart only because we don't know how to make a fresh start.

What could I possibly say that would make you realize that I am who I say I am. Not another day should go by without you knowing from me that I am real despite the way you feel about me. Shoving me deep into the dirt will not make me go away as it will only make me dusty.

Imagine a time when the earth was filled with everything but humans. What it must look like is a peaceful vibrant place which is so unlike today now with the introduction of humans. Let's see how much we can destroy.

- Monday, April 12, 2004 at 07:05:42 (PDT)

wishes wishes
wishes wishes wishes
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- Saturday, April 10, 2004 at 19:45:28 (PDT)

he is
in every way
than you could have ever aspired
to be

Thank heaven for small miracles
at the tips of his fingers
and the angels that serve as his shoulders

what a rock
upon solid ground
I wish he were mine

What I hang upon the stars tonight

- Saturday, April 10, 2004 at 19:42:02 (PDT)

whereeverit is that you are I can only hope that you are happy and that you are being loved
- Thursday, April 08, 2004 at 08:36:20 (PDT)

since my absense will be felt while I am gone
I wanted to leave you with an oxymoron...please
don't ever say I was found missing because it cannot
be both I was either found or I am still missing
- Thursday, April 08, 2004 at 07:31:55 (PDT)

of me and to me

To some degree I think you would be proud of me
even thought I know that I should not have tried to duplicate you in any way shape or form but I could
not resist the challenge of trying to become like you
and now that I have succeeded you are no where to be found which is not okay with me because I wanted you to see what you have done for me even though you never agreed to give up your personality to me.

- Thursday, April 08, 2004 at 07:29:38 (PDT)

I search for your existence in everything I read
I look for your presence after I've puffed the weed
I long for your company and would even like your seed
I wish you would please accept me as your only tease
- Thursday, April 08, 2004 at 07:25:25 (PDT)

one more? Yeah one more

the view from here is not ubstructed in any way shape or form. I can see the tips of the mountains and wonder if anyone is on them at this moment. It looks like it is snowing but I am sure its just rain mixed in with a whole bunch of white butterflys who are dancing around making waves. From over here I can see a hurricane is beginning to brew. I wonder if they will name her sue? I hope not I think to myself as I am walking back to where I had originally came from. My train of thought is de-railed when I sit back down. New thoughts begin to form and what I cannot stop thinking about is that no matter how much information I give about my past it seems that I have not as of yet been able to find someone else who fully and completely understands what I am talking about when I say Never mind my wounds as I need to worry about the wounds on the others I have hurt by just simply thinking about them.

I ramble because I need to
I have to drain my brain
thats the only place, I mean way
to live is if I clear it all out

- Thursday, April 08, 2004 at 07:20:29 (PDT)

I wish I could rid myself of these fears
as they do nothing for me but bring me down
to a level where my mind is free but my body
is immobilized for the purpose of having my
mind attack me with all of which frightens me
my mind is holding me hostage and there is no
way that I'm breaking free from this one this time
because even if I wanted to I could not take
myself and run away like a swarm of flying dancing
birds do when an aligator is near. I do want to
set sail but unfortunately my body needs my mind and until my mind is free from all of these fears I ain't going nowhere.
- Thursday, April 08, 2004 at 06:59:25 (PDT)

I wake
I reach
I roll
I bake
I'm ok

being in love doesn't mean being with the one you love. For instance, I love you but I am not with you nor will I ever be no no because it is only in love that we will remain and that drives me insane so now I have to take medicine because you are not around but you are not to blame because I only said I loved you...
- Thursday, April 08, 2004 at 06:50:41 (PDT)

you, a third above

your harmony is powerful
make music to me

- Wednesday, April 07, 2004 at 19:21:27 (PDT)

I figured since you are linked to this website ( maybe you would care to do a presentation of it to the group in here...hmmm whatdoyah think?

- Wednesday, April 07, 2004 at 11:50:03 (PDT)

I said I was in love with mtm not mt v
- Wednesday, April 07, 2004 at 09:04:57 (PDT)

You cant make me hate you
it is no longer in me
you can make me hurt
if thats what you wanted
you did a bang-up job
but you cannot make me change the
way that I think
You cannot make me change what I know
I know you and
I know you loved me
I have a very calm acceptance of that
I wish you the same
maybe one day you would
stop hurting so much
everyone in your life doesnt
need to pay
for your transgressions
my debt has been fullfilled
I love you Babycat, it was so good to see you again
- Tuesday, April 06, 2004 at 23:14:29 (PDT)

since you seem to be so good at giving advice
maybe you can tell me what to do with these
chapped lips I have had for at least a week or two
now keep in mind I have no chap stic k.
- Tuesday, April 06, 2004 at 21:29:16 (PDT)

in a heartbeat I have realized so much
and it scared the hell out of me because
from that beat on I was no longer who I
thought I had been for the past 11 years.

Everything for me was shattered when this
realization came through as it left nothing
untouched. The only thing it never disturbed
was the worrying I do over you and now after all
of this destruction, my worry for you has grown
to a size much greater than even eternity.

I will continue to plow through life just as I do
with my car during a mid January's winter storm. The only difference now for me will be that I no longer will have to walk in your shadow because I have now found mine...(c) - Fan of E gypt
- Tuesday, April 06, 2004 at 20:27:07 (PDT)

- Monday, April 05, 2004 at 19:58:22 (PDT)

I just had you
over and over
in my mind
whether you like it or not

imagination: don't waste it
- Monday, April 05, 2004 at 19:08:56 (PDT)


The long and winding maze
evolves into your heart
held by puppet strings
tied in a knot
as the windscrapes the arts beauty
leaving clouds above your mind

- Sunday, April 04, 2004 at 19:08:30 (PDT)

- Sunday, April 04, 2004 at 17:18:15 (PDT)

time to check your cat box
T minus ten minutes and counting

- Sunday, April 04, 2004 at 13:56:42 (PDT)

its going to be alright
- Sunday, April 04, 2004 at 13:42:32 (PDT)

even though you already know...


my soul is calling me to listen to what it has to say.
I have rejected what matters the most and now time is here to tell me that enough is enough.
It is now time to get better. I hear my soul.

I am my only hope if I want this to end.
It is me who has to put a stop to it and the only way I can do this is to stop thinking of you.

Last night's dream was the final episode and there will be no more. I am getting out of the Boob Tube industry
because I am tired of being repeatly tortured by our dreams of a sentuality that will never get fulfilled.

Its not just one thing:
You do not receive me the way I need you to and unfortunately at this time I cannot describe to you what it is that I need because I haven't got a clue.

leave you alone:
Wine me up like a top
run your fingers down my spine
because that will make me unwine
Hot as fire you make me sizzle
I feel like bacon when you are around
Let me go on hardwood floors
but make sure you close the doors
so that when I am done I will stop.

My heart aches for your touch
for I loves you ohh so very much
because you understand dutch and
I'm not speaking about their language
but of the fact that they understand half
when it comes to a sandwich.

Running away from love:
Hot air and bodies twisted together
free to explore what comes to mind
slow to the touch you are and its
almost like being in slow motion.
My body quivers and you hold me
tight as if it were going to be
all night yeah right you're too
afraid of what that might mean.
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- Sunday, April 04, 2004 at 10:09:36 (PDT)

Que the Actress
- Sunday, April 04, 2004 at 09:15:44 (PDT)

well what do you have to say about t hat?
- Sunday, April 04, 2004 at 07:39:58 (PDT)

"I can read tablature like a heart monitor"
Johnny Hollywood bragged to the pregenat mesikin who could not speak english
- Saturday, April 03, 2004 at 20:06:00 (PST)

Johnny Hollywood declared his hot as fuck little blonde girl friend a national holiday
and went off to celebrate it,only problem was
he did'nt have her heiness to celebrate it with
so there he was paddling the rice boat up next to Berthas big ass yacht trying to sneak into the dock
when outta the water came the sea monster Bertha tard and took a big chunk outta the front of Johnny's homemade hydroponic rice patty a float go.

"I shure do like yer Jim Morrison pants there,little Miss Lake Forest" Johnny Hollywood tried to tell the girl who talked when he wanted her to listen.
forth gear kicked the elevator went to the top

"Would you be my Yoko?"
"And you shure the fuck-ski can announciate too"
He tried to think on the second level of his mind so the microchip the government put in his hollow head would not pick it up and detect that he wanted to

"No he did'nt, that is a lie" Level one repeted.

So they would'nt run the interference needed to abort yet another of Johnny Hollywoods love adventures"

"Nip it in the bud,per say" Said the biggest cock blocking deisel dyke with a very handsome crew cut
in charge of the microchipped transmission signals that would come from Johnny Hollywoods brain on the first level of thought,like the every twenty second thought that burns thru Johnny Hollywoods brain "I wanna bone Britney" "I wanna bone Britney" every twenty seconds this thought would pass thru the reciever on the first level and if Johnny Hollywood ever wanted to try the third level it was to much work like the psychic time waste of energy trying to help deliever a pizza with the questions answered from nowhere.

"You suck bitch and your mama has three asses"
Johnny left on the first level for the bulldyke thought monitor,always in the way
There the third level was like a big beatles song
we all live in a 'ol yeller yellow submarine hidden from the thought reciever her dark hair her dark eyes
and her morrison duds
she was good to go

on the second level there was the red hairs reaching out from the green buds

there the desiel dyke was at the thought reciever typing up a storm trying to stop Johnny Hollywoods thought,trying to command him to want the big fat ugly women of Round Lake
trying to block out Princess and God the Hottest woman to ever reside in his heart

Boom!!! Johnny Hollywoods rice pattie raft hit the sides of Berthas big ass yacht Boom!!!! it swallowed the rice boat and spit Johnny Hollywood out into the sea without making prior funeral arrangments


Johnny Hollywood had to think
should he blow his brains out to end bieng thier puppet
could he just leave a nice thought to shove up thier asses whatever they wanted to hear
Fuck Off he bounced across the screen
that made the bull dyke pissed
that made the thought monitor operator hungry
and the more she would eat the more she would blame Johnny Hollywood like every other fat bitch in his life.
- Saturday, April 03, 2004 at 19:58:43 (PST)

ette ette ette
- Saturday, April 03, 2004 at 19:04:36 (PST)

you seem to know a lot for someone who says they know nothing
I am going to hold you to everything positive you have ever said about or to me
this time you did make yourself known but it wasn't because of tripping that I know you know more then you
are letting on
Among the something that you made me, you also told me about another sun the kind that shines no matter what time it is
there will always be flexibility in the world just as there will always be gymnastics on television and we can always count on figure skaters to amaze us even if its just with a figure eight.
Remember the porch scene and the overwhelming silence that also existed there? I rather enjoyed myself even though you were hung up on murphy's law when in fact I spoke very clear.
you are so lucky to have what you have in the first middle and last for it will never go out of style even if you do.
another piece of the puzzle was discovered when the gremlins covered the cement with many different colours

- Saturday, April 03, 2004 at 18:50:48 (PST)

ha ha
- Saturday, April 03, 2004 at 16:59:59 (PST)

hold you to that
- Saturday, April 03, 2004 at 16:35:54 (PST)

a girl I would hold.
- Saturday, April 03, 2004 at 16:22:55 (PST)

Interglactic Mind Dream Bed

The only peace I receive is
through this mattress because
it offers so much more than
what reality could ever offer
in a gizillion light years. I
found the mattress on a
sidewalk down a street I rarely
ever fequented because I can't
remember the name of the street.
Nonetheless, it has improved my sleep
and then some. When I sleep I am now
capable of visiting the innerside of
everything through entering my head.
The dreams I produce from this bed
are absolutely and no doubt from out
of this world. While waiting in the
waiting room of this other world, I
got to see a disney flic and I think
they said it was the cat from o uterspace
- Saturday, April 03, 2004 at 14:02:04 (PST)

lovelife up for grabs
well aren't you going
to weigh in those crabs
you know you might stand
a better chance if you
drag your mom into it
while i drag your dad into it
and somewhere down the road
we are bound to figure it out
if its not the birthdays that
give us away it will be hollywood
- Saturday, April 03, 2004 at 13:41:19 (PST)

You better step the fuck off of him, bitch, he's

Don't make me break your face
or puncture your silicone-infested body

and, might want to learn how to spell
and not chew with your mouth open

he's real picky about that
- Saturday, April 03, 2004 at 13:23:16 (PST)

LIZA!?????????? ???!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
- Saturday, April 03, 2004 at 13:20:25 (PST)

"My Getto Ass Gangsta Bitch Barbie"

My Getto assed gangsta bitch Barbie
has stole my heart this time
My getto ass gangsta bitch Barbie
told me she'ld be mine{If I'd listen to her}
My getto ass gangsta bitch Barbie
is everything I need
I know theres a trailer park somewhere
for you and me

My getto ass gangsta bitch Barbie
shes so warm and sweet
My getto ass gangsta bitch Barbie
gets me high on BLONDAGE

- Saturday, April 03, 2004 at 13:04:04 (PST)

"The Best Barbie Loooking Bitch I Ever Did See"

The Best Barbie looking bitch I ever did see
the Best Barbie looking bitch I ever did see
the Best Barbie looking bitch I ever did see
I wanna get with you Barbie,Wanna get with me?

I got a little Asian girl looks so fine
ever day I'm with her I dream forever she'ld be mine
she breaks all the records for breaking my mind
I'd give her my heart til' the day I die

The Best Barbie looking bitch I ever did see
the Best Barbie looking bitch I ever did see
the Best Barbie looking bitch I ever did see
I wanna get with you Barbie,Wanna get with me?

I got a nice Squall looks like a Mesikin
anything at all,She can do it again and again
has all of whats left of my heart thats not pretend
I could see being with her at the very end

The Best Barbie looking bitch I ever did see
the Best Barbie looking bitch I ever did see
the Best Barbie looking bitch I ever did see
I wanna get with you Barbie,Wanna get with me?

Theres a nice Red head,shes way to fine
everytime I'm with you I imagine its her that time
my dream is counting her freckles,how many can I find
even when she's bitchy,I wanna call her mine

The Best Barbie looking bitch I ever did see
the Best Barbie looking bitch I ever did see
the Best Barbie looking bitch I ever did see
I wanna get with you Barbie,Wanna get with me?

You look like Barbie and thats O.K.
I think its good you look that way
You got everything I ever dreamed
that blonde pony tail is all I need

The Best Barbie looking bitch I ever did see
the Best Barbie looking bitch I ever did see
the Best Barbie looking bitch I ever did see
I wanna get with you Barbie,Wanna get with me?
- Saturday, April 03, 2004 at 12:42:09 (PST)

yeah I guess your right
- Saturday, April 03, 2004 at 10:28:21 (PST)

I really do wish there was some way to get through to you
even if its just for a few moments that I hear your voice
that would be better than not hearing it at all don't you think? You think you know me when really you don't because I don't reveal it all to you as that would not be proper to let you in on what I am like when I am alone. If you would only reach out to me by using the telephone this whole mystery would be solved once and for all. I fall asleep in an attempt to merge with you in the deep and my how lucky I am because there you are soon after I move into REM. I take you by my side and hold you tight right from the start because we don't have that much time so I'm not about to waste it. I take my hand and move it to your chin which is facing the ground along with the rest of your face. I extend my fingers and gently take hold of your chin so that I can turn your face up and towards me so that you are looking right at me. In the most soberest of sober moments our eyes did meet and together it was an electrifying feeling that came over you and me so that we could feel something so real and heartfelt that only you and I would know what we did everytime we remembered what you whispered in my ear while we were lying on each other in your bed.
- Friday, April 02, 2004 at 20:07:09 (PST)

I have always longed for adventure
until you came along and offered
me some.

You wisked me away into a whirlwind
of fun while your parents were away
we did the deed and created a son.

I remember it and your house as plain
as day so its too bad there's history
there because now I know everything.

Getting rid of me will be difficult
just because I have the power to see
and right now I am standing at your
bookcase and you are out on the foyer
- Friday, April 02, 2004 at 19:48:09 (PST)

the crack whore diet is a lot of fun
my crack whore is the only one
everything when it comes to love
the crack whore diet is what I'm on

ride the crack whore
write to the crack whore
ride the crack whore
to much fun
that crazy ol' crack whore poet whos starting to know it
- Friday, April 02, 2004 at 19:34:40 (PST)

- Friday, April 02, 2004 at 17:17:09 (PST)

I know it happens but I don't want to see it
my life flows much better when I'm not around that shit
take you as you are and take me as I am was never our plan because deep down we instinctually knew that this we could never do as acceptance is our worst best enemy and although we would like to reckon with our enemy, we don't kid ourselves either.

The critical mass is here
I can feel it everywhere
its always been here but
now I'm just tuning in
I am a better person
because of this mass
and I am ready to take
you to task if need be
- Friday, April 02, 2004 at 12:19:22 (PST)

I will wake, shake, and bake you alright
cause I'm full of amunition all day and night
so I could care a less more than you'll ever know
its just a flick of a switch inside my mind and
then the fluids will be re-routed to think thoughts
of a different kind. My devious ways you will not
withstand because I live for the pen to be in my hand
so that it can report all that you say and do so really
who's watching who?

- Friday, April 02, 2004 at 11:53:25 (PST)

"The Travis Ray Cole Blues"

When you wake up in the mornin'
and the monies all gone
and your crack whores not so magic
and you live a blues song

So you take your caseworker to aldi
to get three carts full of food the taxpayers
paid for trying to hide the fact that she gets seven checks in seven different names and the lonely psych wards not that far away
but she lives in a town house that costs thirteen hundred a month
that the taxpayers paid for
and my babies to damn pretty to make us any lunch

in carpet the glittering hairs of brass shine like her blonde hair in the morning sun
actress' all around you
and you can't take your squall back
even though shes in your heart

they all look like Bertha code name bleach blonde bertha-ski baby but at least she'll take a bath
yeah the blues all around you
and its time to check the cat box

yeah you wake up in the mornin' and the boss is crazier than you
wants you to sit in the seat that makes you smell like the fat smelly guy for days
and then the hot honeies won't wanna get with you
so you work all day
for lysol and gasoline
and talk to the peasant women
to see if they need anything
{other than dental work}
so you find a new mom for the asshole kids
but she don't last that long
so you hide from the big fat ugly lying bitches
that spread rumours about you
and never have anymore time to write anirexic bitches a new poem
one that make them cry
or cause the sweetest rain to fall inside thier catbox

so you say fuck it and pray to she finest girl to ever reside in grayslake where they tore the roads up and might just make it a historic town where they're are only horse trails
and the fat girl at the bank gets pissed
but you don't wanna watch her belly dance and shake
like the wake and b ake
::: :::
- Friday, April 02, 2004 at 10:28:09 (PST)

I could care less what the hell you did and with whom with a tube of KY Warming Jelly

(oh, hello last night's dinner)

Thank you for every detail, bastard

my surefire one-way trip to

can I please peruse the nearest lumber yard
find the densest, heaviest, largest piece of timber
with which to club you over the head several times

in the next life, it's the other way around

green has nothing up on me
- Friday, April 02, 2004 at 10:13:13 (PST)

lottery lies
feed the rich machine
- Friday, April 02, 2004 at 10:01:00 (PST)

love is linda
- Friday, April 02, 2004 at 08:06:32 (PST)

it was on a whim
a decision made to
retreat inside the mind
and lock the door from
the outside so noone
could ever rescue me
because I would never
be able to break free
from the pain that keeps
the door locked until such
a time as I begin to wake up
to the fact that I have hurt
you deeply because all of it
believe it or not was a lie.
I have trapped myself in a place
so dark and full of disguises
that it is just a matter of time
before I lose who I am and gain
what you are which is a person
who believes in a day where life
was taken away when in actual fact
this is not the case as I let go
of life in a different way by giving
it away to a place never to be found
so long as I stay locked inside my mind each day.

- Thursday, April 01, 2004 at 20:55:58 (PST)

Mother how could u do this,
do u even understand
that i have tried for so long
to be the daugher u ask
mother cant u see
mother wont u listen
i have done all i can,
i cant do any more
u will never see, will u
that everything i do i do for you
Mother i wish i could be
everything u ask and want me to be
but u ask to much
u wont even look around
past your hazy drug filled world
to see that i have done more then ever imaged
u like to think it was you
you who did this all for me
but u didnt mother, i did it myself
without u by me
like i always have
like i always will
Mother it took me a long time to realize
to raelize i dont owe u
i dont owe u my life
i dont owe u my soul
u did all these things like mothers should
Mother dont u see
Mother cant u see
i cant give my life to u
i wont give up my life for you
Mother i love u
but i just cant do this anymore

- Thursday, April 01, 2004 at 18:22:59 (PST)

why are the ones i honestly can envision loving, either assholes in the end, or gay
- Thursday, April 01, 2004 at 06:04:51 (PST)

I can't
and I don't know what to do

fell again
I never really got up
and it's me, goddamnit
I deserve you more than anyone else
I've suffered
till oh, God, I can't see straight
I really can't clean up as well as I used to
I'm dragged over
beyond and through
your world

I can't bend or twist
I have to give up
and give me rest for a month


I don't understand it
and I have to separate
tell me I am hideous
and I will understand
tell me you can't stomach the sight of me
and you've got all the reason there

I missed your boat
I missed it completely
I'm another ocean

"sentenced first to burn and then to freeze
as I watched by the window
as the boys grow in the trees"
- Thursday, April 01, 2004 at 01:16:57 (PST)

for years I have thought one way about him but I have just learned something so personal about you and I that I have no choice but to pay attention to the breakdown that has currently taken over the airwaves and feeding itself into my ears. Is that real enough or are you just glad to be alive? I could go on for awhile playing out loud with our memories but I won't cause I think you know its enough when the claws come out from the catbox really ready to attack on a nanosecond's notice. Those voices are not my fault so why should I spent my life feeling sorry for you especially since you deserve better if that is all I would be capable of doing for you. I gave you love and passion and you gave me belief, air, and balance. I thank you for that but what I will not tolerate mr smarty pants is you claiming in something that is not true and you know damn full well that whatever ails you is not the result of a spliting nature but rather it is the emphasis that you place on why you cannot concentrate on this one ton super sex world anyhow I aint your shrink but know this you are a beautiful person and I loved you for what its worth but I just couldn't deal with that kinda nonsense
- Wednesday, March 31, 2004 at 19:05:43 (PST)

To be spiritual or not to be spiritual is the question that everyone should think about at least once in their short life. Preferably everyone should think about this more often once they have had a spiritual awakening. Everyone gets them but not everyone pays attention to them and they just simply dismiss them. The difference is that once everyone is in tuned with their own spirituality everyone can no longer dismiss these awakenings like they used to and the reason is because of the willingness from everyone to become a christian. This willingness only comes out when everyone participates and the only way everyone can participate is if they submit to their lord and saviour. Once this has been done, everyone is now able to move into the good mind forever and they were able to do it with a fresh start. Doesn't all of this break your heart I know it does mine and that is why I had to join and so now here I am preaching to you about not what your spirituality can do for you but what you can do for your spirituality. You do realize that the only reason I am preaching is because I know that if everyone just did what I suggested and earnestly tried to make a go of it in life, then that is when we would have the second coming of christ because everyone would be an image of him and wouldn't we be more apt to see him then?
- Wednesday, March 31, 2004 at 18:00:07 (PST)

ie) give me an example please

the catbox has got my lovers tongue
never to speak again what will he do
i guess i will have to learn sign language
oh yah thats right the catbox bit his fingers off too
now he won't be able to type me letters of love boowho
that must make him sad enough to cry for the blues
because I know that his losses have given me the wooes
and no longer can my love say do you do the doos and never will he ever be fully amused like he was when all of his body parts were fused to him. Damn that catbox anyway.
- Wednesday, March 31, 2004 at 17:46:06 (PST)

The answer please... ....

the catbox has got my lovers tongue
never to speak again what will he do
i guess i will have to learn sign language
oh yah thats right the catbox bit his fingers off too
now he won't be able to type me letters of love either
not unless he learns how to type with his feet or mouth
oh yah i forgot the catbox bit them off as well! Is there anything that the catbox won't do or should I just assume that the catbox eats anything that goes near it?
- Wednesday, March 31, 2004 at 17:32:43 (PST)

my time is not important
- Wednesday, March 31, 2004 at 17:05:21 (PST)

will uriah heep do?
- Tuesday, March 30, 2004 at 12:38:59 (PST)

listen to two Frank Zappa Cds and call me in the morning
- Tuesday, March 30, 2004 at 07:32:16 (PST)

crack whore sprinkled with rose peda ls
- Monday, March 29, 2004 at 10:12:43 (PST)

I choose yesterday a memorie

to hold onto
to love and believe in
- Monday, March 29, 2004 at 10:05:58 (PST)

wasted time

the time invested
would not be wasted as long as I can still look into her eyes

- Monday, March 29, 2004 at 06:18:57 (PST)

I bet you didn't know that i slipped in and then out of your city over the last day or so.......did you?

- Sunday, March 28, 2004 at 13:03:16 (PST)

april fool
- Sunday, March 28, 2004 at 08:39:50 (PST)

Is anyone else up at 5:00am just bec ause?

- Sunday, March 28, 2004 at 02:50:49 (PST)

- Friday, March 26, 2004 at 18:36:52 (PST)


The Queen of my heart
breaks my mind
I look into the sea of the universe
there is no better
She is the finest art these eyes can hold
- Friday, March 26, 2004 at 05:27:54 (PST)

Winner Winner Winner

Cassandra Cassie
Miss March 2004

- Friday, March 26, 2004 at 05:24:53 (PST)

yes but time and time again
that same person messes up
and in the end
it is we that are the chumps

for taking them back
allowing to be dragged around
and lack of consideracy
or even a modest civility
why do some people have such problems
with their lack of communication

what the fuck!?
the telephone can be a great device
if used accordingly
not to be shoved aside
and avoided for the person
that needs to know what is the know
the most
you grate my nerves
everything in me that you hate
is inside of you
and has grown exponentially
even before we met

Never Again
- Thursday, March 25, 2004 at 19:45:19 (PST)

When we mess up wouldn't it be perfect if we all just had one more chance to get it right once and for all - amen!!

- Thursday, March 25, 2004 at 17:37:10 (PST)


- Thursday, March 25, 2004 at 17:19:28 (PST)


- Thursday, March 25, 2004 at 17:16:49 (PST)

:::::::O::::::: :=
::O:::::::O:: :::=
::::::::::: :::::=
::::::::: :::::::=
::::::: :::::::::=
- Thursday, March 25, 2004 at 17:11:27 (PST)

^^^^^^^The stars so bright like a headlight^^^^^^^
^^^^^^^^^^^^^^tell a story of you and I^^^^^^^^^^^^^^
^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^a love lost^^^^^ ^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^
^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^ ^^^^^^^^^GB^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^

- Thursday, March 25, 2004 at 17:05:46 (PST)

~~~~no matter what I do there you are coming through~~~~
~I know you mean well despite the fact I feel blue~
~~~~~~about the truth that we're nothing in reality~~~~~~
~~~~~~~but we are everything in our fantas ies~~~~~~~
- Thursday, March 25, 2004 at 16:55:15 (PST)

The gypsy woman looked into the crystal ball and then back at Johnny Hollywood several times and then said

" a white wedding dress holding a bucket of
chicken on the hood of a camaro with t-tops
and a white picket fence"

Johnny Hollywood stood up and made a bib out of a napkin and held a plastic spork in his left hand
and a plastic knife in the other.

The Gypsy woman then held her hand out
and Johnny Hollywoods navigational system wanted to give her a hi five.
- Thursday, March 25, 2004 at 07:33:45 (PST)

only you could mimic jim from according to
and ive got nothing to say tonight cause im tired
- Tuesday, March 23, 2004 at 18:26:29 (PST)

its you that my life is lacking
it is you that is missing
why i waste it on what turns into sewage
everyt ime
- Tuesday, March 23, 2004 at 08:27:35 (PST)

quit wasting your time on me with crappy words
i dont care about you or anything but a nice blonde crack wh ore
- Tuesday, March 23, 2004 at 06:44:08 (PST)

the second coming of bertha
was surprising
but sadly enough Tina
won that one easily
in the " hot " cata gory
- Tuesday, March 23, 2004 at 06:40:17 (PST)

scarlet from pole to pole

and everything you just said
discounts everything I have ever done

and waiting for you to want
every line inspired
a volume
a closetfull of light
and all the things you have done or ever could
want to be with mine
with me

but you don't

I try and I think
I think I understand
when benefits and credits are given
to cancel the disgenerosity
and not to think otherwise

how can I know
just how will I know

what swims in his head
what fire of choice resides in his heart
this very day
this moment
more love than love

Just when I thought I could not want him more
- Monday, March 22, 2004 at 21:54:21 (PST)

I always thought the world was western until I reached a certain age and then I understood something that was different and all I could wonder was why the world was made up of people not the same. The answer that came to me was this: in order for me to ever know the answer to my question, I would have to acknowledge I was different and then live my life with other people being something they may not understand...but I would because the shoe would be on the other foot....hey maybe that is the answer?...ah no that would be to ez so I guess I better accept my different and get on with living my life...right ?
- Monday, March 22, 2004 at 18:35:53 (PST)

i truely have never met a better tin a
- Monday, March 22, 2004 at 12:01:18 (PST)

the bertha medication seems a lot stronger now
they all look like bertha
but they smell like betty
- Monday, March 22, 2004 at 10:07:05 (PST)

you did'nt call and I did'nt care
the time for myself is less and less until
the breaking point
I can see the dream is one
one is Goddess
one is the reason the dogs shred my heart on the side walk in front of your wasted trail
if it was far I would still have a piece of your mind and I am holding on to your power
you gave it to me
because you knew you were mine
I know you are always going to have a piece of my
wasted words
when the same energy is in the atr
you feel it in your eyes
someway somehow there will be a reason for
- Sunday, March 21, 2004 at 20:09:34 (PST)




t at
- Sunday, March 21, 2004 at 12:12:35 (PST)

do you wanna get some coffee or a dinner with me?
ill be around following next week and so if you
want me then all you gotta do is let me know and
i will be yours from saturday to sunday night next week.......
- Sunday, March 21, 2004 at 12:07:47 (PST)

i hear yah...thank god for dual personalities and because of them I found an old oil vile in a junk door..whoa! get me a pin...
- Sunday, March 21, 2004 at 11:59:33 (PST)

"Big Bertha Bong Moss"

Thank you goddess of resin

- Sunday, March 21, 2004 at 11:56:28 (PST)

only if it will get me high...will it...yes i do
- Sunday, March 21, 2004 at 11:55:52 (PST)

"Magic Bong Water made with bacarddi"

hemp waste drink it some day and die

- Sunday, March 21, 2004 at 11:54:09 (PST)

"Bong Water"

hemp waste

we can save it
- Sunday, March 21, 2004 at 11:53:02 (PST)

yes.ill fuck you
- Sunday, March 21, 2004 at 11:13:35 (PST)

at least acknowledge something of what I have said
- Sunday, March 21, 2004 at 05:17:59 (PST)

one mile per inch
the distance between you and I

I could
and I could
and I could
all day

only just the right of everything
to the visual completion of my daydreams

I could touch you until
my fingerprints

were no longer discernable

- Saturday, March 20, 2004 at 21:12:20 (PST)

"Philipinos are excellent" Johnny Hollywood said into the micro phone and then
Johnny Hollywood slapped the old asian lady on the ass as she finished up his dental work with out any delay
followed with a nice short lap dance then he took her to catch mice in the alley for a delicous home cooked meal with candles they talked under the stars trying to find the one he paid almost a hundred dollars to name after that hot grayslake red head
wheres the star?

candles on the beach?
on the beach shareing mice and wine

"I cant believe we could'nt find any cockroaches"
Sweet brown bertha told our hero as he rubbed rice on her ass
"Oh Yoko, Oh Yoko" "I wanna smell a mesikin"
Johnny Hollywood said as he chewed her ear lobes

- Saturday, March 20, 2004 at 20:06:53 (PST)

your buffalo has it the mange
the clowns told GodsGirl when she started
scratching her ass furiously at the opening of the rodeo parade there will not be any more of this sex with the diseased goats the ringmaster begged her
while loading the flare gun
she needed tattoos of herself loving goats right on her forehead the wieght guess extrodianre pronounced
dance your disco you slob ass watermelon carring twitski
- Saturday, March 20, 2004 at 19:56:33 (PST)


tic tock is the sound echoing from the clock
click click is the noise I make searching for you
and I must say that sometimes you do make the journey difficult and that is only because I get lost in the links you have created for my amusement every day. I look outside and all I see are the memories of you and me as they dance with the wind while passing by the window. I still to this day look inside only to find traces of you that I never shed from the lining of my heart. Today from the outside they look at me on the inside and in love they fall trying to grab the wall on their way down to the ground but their efforts failed when they realized I was already in there before them and I nailed their love for me to me so it would never be free to love anyone but me even though I know it does not need to be trapped to love me as his love would do this anyway.
- Saturday, March 20, 2004 at 11:57:12 (PST)

unfortunately this thing with you is all based on lust because we never did come full circle with the other things lovers do. The glue that we used was missing the key bonding ingredient named friends first, and so it is no real wonder why we are not together under a blue sun and a yellow sky!

today reality hit me so hard that it knocked the wind out of me until close to noon where at that time I was able to breath but man I felt like shit. In hindsight, I should have never opened the patio doors when I saw you standing there; but how was I to know that you would be bringing me a blow to the heart that I would never forget so long as I think of you.

it only registers when I recall the times you and I shared so long ago and you really must know though that no matter where I go I am always recalling these times as if they are happening now. What that says about me I know that too because even I think it from time to time as well. I am insane as they come and that is no lie and this will remain with me until I am prepared to tell you goodbye...

- Saturday, March 20, 2004 at 07:19:18 (PST)

well did it work?
- Saturday, March 20, 2004 at 06:58:45 (PST)

- Friday, March 19, 2004 at 21:27:57 (PST)

- Friday, March 19, 2004 at 20:16:34 (PST)

more words
- Friday, March 19, 2004 at 20:03:59 (PST)

she only means everything
in though t
- Friday, March 19, 2004 at 07:33:50 (PST)

In the land of nod

I am highly sexual with you

see you tonight in the land of sleep
- Thursday, March 18, 2004 at 22:19:26 (PST)

Today I took apart my watch
only to stop the clock
which made the time stand still
because I took a pencil and with it
I did block the wheels that were interlocked
and so why did I do this you might ask
because in approximately two hours from now
I will attempt to create telepathy and time
is not needed only a target only an image
and that is something that has never gone
not like the rest of my fading information
about you and I and when we lived together
in the seemingly distant past
- Thursday, March 18, 2004 at 17:27:59 (PST)

the connection between us is on its way to being lost
because neither of us is putting into us much thought
& you know I have always looked at you as hot and god
even during times when you believed in yourself as not
I prayed for you that you would plant more seeds in sod
that would harvest you a plant we know as the green pot
just one flower I said to the Lord just give him what you got which is me and you know that it is me I'm his rod and he is my curtain !

- Thursday, March 18, 2004 at 17:20:07 (PST)

oh honey
- Thursday, March 18, 2004 at 16:46:11 (PST)

what the f is wrong with me
doing that only to find out after
that you probably know what I
was up to last night and I am sure
you already know way too much
we haven't even met!

john debney will be added to my
already enigmatic cd collection
because it too has passion.

I must of been on a different frequency
at the time when I wrote you that
but the concepts that I presented are
what have my attention also and so maybe
that is why I might have been chosen to be
the one to bring these concepts up so naturally
and casually and now that they are here in the
form of a hankerchif and as a passionate cd, we
are both kinda lookin at each other wondering how
this could be that he and I share telepathy---it must be some type of love connection thing is what I have recently sent to try and tell him before someone else scoobie's him up !
- Thursday, March 18, 2004 at 15:31:34 (PST)

bertha bertha bertha
- Thursday, March 18, 2004 at 11:04:45 (PST)

bertha power

- Thursday, March 18, 2004 at 10:52:26 (PST)

in the closer to the middle but sorta like the end but not really the complete end
I dont need you when there is so much to live for
in this world of shit so go away go far away
I love nothing
except for the one Goddess
and theres no room in my heart for anyone else
especially someone who has no bartending skills what so ever
- Wednesday, March 17, 2004 at 10:25:26 (PST)

In the beggining,
I took you
for the first time.
And now, here in the middle,
I would take you again,
like before, with both of us
knowing one another,
proving what we have learned in
the past five years.
Refine the memory,
make it something new.
Take it to new levels.
something being wrong always made
me want to make it right
Touch me,
make your first time into
a true demonstration
of need.
- Tuesday, March 16, 2004 at 23:58:28 (PST)

I could teach you how to get there

so what is the name of disgrace?

desperation in drumfires
cascading in torrents
just casually amazing

I cannot cease to want for you

my hands have your name written all over them

- Tuesday, March 16, 2004 at 19:12:33 (PST)

the other five dudes you are in love with have to go
because they are in the way of the attention I must
give you
- Tuesday, March 16, 2004 at 17:39:17 (PST)

I can fix your butt
and wear down the excess that
stands in the way of your soul bieng free
with friction

until we are married then you will get as fat as can be
like all married women do
- Tuesday, March 16, 2004 at 17:37:17 (PST)

scratch and sniff Tina crack sores
- Tuesday, March 16, 2004 at 10:03:39 (PST)

"Shes so inspirational"

Johnny Hotdog Hollywood stepped into the shower and pulled the curtian
for once again it was voters retardation day
and he told everyone he was going to vote for Bertha
when they bought those drinks and gave him the accoustic cheese,and there was a war still in the middle if filming,causing the high winds to blow from the bombings on the other side of the planet
making all the world a cloudy day and thats when he got them old
"I'm so depressed I'm gonna have to vote for Tina Crack Sores again this time blues"
- Tuesday, March 16, 2004 at 08:28:38 (PST)

c'mon travis...what do you look like ???
- Tuesday, March 16, 2004 at 08:02:23 (PST)

im sure you have heard of virgo
but have you ever heard of vertigo
well I am suppose to be the opposite
which is to be balanced & fair at heart
so how you gonna fix this one?
- Monday, March 15, 2004 at 19:38:29 (PST)

let us just get one thing straight and that is if I wasn't in love with another two people then I would be faithful to you ...hopefully the record has been corrected because I am no villan....someone who just likes to fool around.......
- Monday, March 15, 2004 at 19:05:40 (PST)

hey point that telescope over here
over here hey I'm talking to you--yes--you
point it over here so Isa can do a little jig for yah
didling didling ding dong ding dingee dingee dong dong ding...just so you know though I cannot sing
- Monday, March 15, 2004 at 17:54:05 (PST)

I am one step closer to the e thing
I know we would have an awesome time
I just wish you would reconsider before
it is too late and I experience it without
you but with someone else
I have to go the distance on this one
because my roots are calling me there
I sure could you the proper company
so this seat's open to you and look
you'll have the best seat in the house
even though its second row in my head...hahaha!

- Monday, March 15, 2004 at 17:46:34 (PST)

I am addicted to verbalizing everything that I feel
I never pay attention to whether the other person cares
I just say what I have to say and when I am done well then I will say I am done -- but until that time I want you to know that I want you in the worst way and so how I cope is to just dream and vision it everytime that I can because I do know that one day what I am dreaming and visioning about now will be what you and I do
- Monday, March 15, 2004 at 17:38:53 (PST)

from the moment you would enter I would begin to check you out from top to bottom and from side to side. The look in your heavenly eyes made me turn to mush because I am in love with the sincerity built that is built into them. Whether you know it or not it is true that you radiate from your eyes a sense of well being and a strong sense of control. On many occasions I have witnessed this as you talk, look, and think and it just melts my heart more deeply into yours---like we was each our own candle with a different colour and we were being liquified into one is how my heart feels about you --- it feels at one.

noone can ever take this away from me and so why I have lived a life where me being obsessed with you not being here has been to some extent a big fat waste and caused a big fat not me, I am in personality, still the same sweet but strong willed spirited girl, but yes my butt!
- Monday, March 15, 2004 at 17:32:09 (PST)

you have this understanding with me
but the problem is that I was never
told about the understanding in the
first place so I've never understood
anything you have done while you were
in the presence of me contrary to what
you might have thought up until now

I don't care what anyone ever says about
you or him...the underlying message to be
had here is that I have experienced both
of you enough to know that you both are
the same in a lot of ways and I just wanted
both of you to know that through a chance meeting
but now that he's going to be joining at some point
maybe you two alone or together could link to him
and show him his way just as you two did or will soon!
- Monday, March 15, 2004 at 17:15:55 (PST)

well here I am again
crying over you
and why this time
because you don't
pay any mind to me
which makes me sad

you're an imposter...
- Monday, March 15, 2004 at 17:02:46 (PST)

- Monday, March 15, 2004 at 11:56:22 (PST)

something meaning ful

someday we will share cheese
maybe motz maybe nots
maybe swiss
until you get me so pissed i kiss you on your eskimo
whoooaa whooaa nose

but until you are greased
and under me
its jesse i want to impregenate
not once but three

- Monday, March 15, 2004 at 10:52:50 (PST)

The only place I want to call is your heart
but you have yet to give me the key you have
been promising me for what seems like forever.

Really what is forever is it really eternity
meaning it never stops because it does not
know how as it was never programed that way.

I could love you forever and beyond that even
if you would just give me the damn key the one
that fits deep inside your heart.

Sometimes I wonder if the only purpose my soul's got
is to be here now in existence to help you go through
everything until you finally have been taught.

I am the furthest thought from your mind and yet you
are the only thought that I can find in my life right now.

The miles between us add up close to 400 and I am in shape to be waundering around without knowing the distance I must travel because I do it all the time.

Really w t f
- Sunday, March 14, 2004 at 19:35:15 (PST)

for you?

made a cd about you the other day
i found all those old songs of yours
so would you like me to do the same?

Who are the 4 times?

soon the city will be loaded
and if its 'real' that you are looking for
then real is what you shall get everytime
your path comes across mine
Do you want permanent eye contact almost like
cement? Or was your preference for a gaze
as if my eye had a laze? No fear from me as
I can do both and I have already proven that today
Real is always something you can count on from me
even though at times you might ask me not to see
I am not ready to be on anyone else's level but mine
and I can tell that you all are a dozen for a dime
but I have only ever witnessed the authenticity a few times
and in total I have been witness to 4 times and each time
although different was yet again always the very same personality.
I'll give you whatever you want if you can figure this one out

Do you think my world is eazy living without you? I wonder why that is
considering if you knew anything you would know that it is not.
The social part of life I had to let go of because I was too afraid
to see us but no i have no choice but to see us when i go out an see them...c'mon say something meaningful...that's the least you could do to let me know you are who you say you are....
- Sunday, March 14, 2004 at 19:17:58 (PST)

it doesnt refresh for what seems like forever
so i didnt see what you wrote yesterday until today and your to much of a dumbass to call me so
talk to yourself
- Sunday, March 14, 2004 at 18:42:54 (PST)

were someone's feelings hurt
or maybe someone's just too busy
In any case I am too dizzy to flirt
- Sunday, March 14, 2004 at 14:40:23 (PST)

im tired of always having to be the one
to be thinkin up shit to say especially
since this is a two way street and you
keep using it so you need to start using
your muscles by moving your mind and tongue
- Sunday, March 14, 2004 at 14:37:43 (PST)

i guess because i don't get it...that means im not suppose to at all?
- Saturday, March 13, 2004 at 21:26:26 (PST)

the lord, bertha and her prize winning cattle walk into a bar and order a drink

- Saturday, March 13, 2004 at 20:14:33 (PST)

Could talk you into fucking me inste ad?
- Saturday, March 13, 2004 at 19:49:25 (PST)

"Your Brothers Wife"

I wanna fuck your brothers wife on the front porch
in the mid day sun

I wanna do her do her until your love is gone

I wanna fuck your brothers wife in the front yard
if she'ld give me some

I wanna fuck your brothers wife in the road out front
or on a landing strip it sounds like fun
- Saturday, March 13, 2004 at 19:43:44 (PST)

c'mon and spend the night with me
lets tie our tongues together and
make beautiful words through the
love we feel for each other now
- Saturday, March 13, 2004 at 19:36:44 (PST)

peanut butter and jam
doesn't matter if its
rasberry or strawberry
to me its all the same
except for smooth peanut
butter and crunchy as there
is a difference and I choose
c runchy....
- Saturday, March 13, 2004 at 19:30:58 (PST)

Take your shoe off you have stepped in some glue.
hey where have you been? At a construction job site?
oh I see at your new house with your new wife and life
then let me ask you why you are still here in my house
eating my food and running up my bills namely the phone?
If you are done with me and what I have to offer then how could this be that you are here as it would only make sense that she would be jealous of the time it has taken you to come and see me. I wish not to know the answer to this and on that note you should get going back to your new everything before I decide to wisk you away to New York.
- Saturday, March 13, 2004 at 19:09:06 (PST)

~the only place I am in is...

What would I tell someone if they were to ask me what my life was like with you? I guess I start off by talking about all the good times we had and after I was done with those times, I would lead into a short discussion on some of the bad times. I would make sure to make it publicly known that you are a great lover because you are a believer of the beyond belief. I am sure i'd tell whomever asked that we were something together but its just that the bad outweighed the good so much so that no recovery could be made between us if we were together and so that is why we are apart. I would also discuss my job at K-mart and how you loved me from the very start of me walking into this now gone store. I know I am not prepared to talk about the field party or the bedroom because I am still too ashamed. I know I cannot stop you from talking to people about these times but I would ask you not to if you could refrain that would be like saying my real name. If you do ever feel the need to speak of these things then could you then just limit it to talking about them in here ?
- Saturday, March 13, 2004 at 18:57:52 (PST)

"what about the monies account" some generic barbie did ask.

all the barbies turn into bertha's lugnut numberone said to lugnut number two.

:::::::::::::::::::::: ::::::::::::::::::::::::::
- Saturday, March 13, 2004 at 11:08:55 (PST)

"We ain't starburst and we ain't fucking golden"
said the now very anger bitch who answers the phone for the escort service before hanging up so very rudely
"on the road again" played on the crossthreaded jukebox and no one noticed
The leaking piss bag burned a hole in the newly reupholstered lepord skin seats of trixies cat box mobile as it turned cartwheels in the crossthreaded lesbian skies.

"Maybe it was a bad ideal to go bounty hunting for the bulldykes who got gone with all the secret cat box dough reciepes and got mixed up with that bad crowd that got caught in the whirlwind commonly known as the great C.T.L.M.U.lesbian mULTIPLIED BY desieldyke pie wedding day gold rush of 2004"
- Saturday, March 13, 2004 at 11:06:22 (PST)

why is the answer to pollock day
- Saturday, March 13, 2004 at 10:51:05 (PST)

"My casewoker don't love me
my caseworker don't care
how come she followed me
aaaaa way down hereah"

Johnny Hollywod sang the lines to the popular favorite
then following it with,

"The stench of the urine is a lot worse
when your on the Bertha Medicaticion"

Then he played the I'm a man bad to the bone mix riff
over and over until it worked its way into who do you love Thats when Seizure Chords woke up on another planet with the holy Goddess of no one has a song called "wake and bake" and the solo became better
if only because the navigational system was set on car box,magic cat box and her cat box half full of dreams

"Go Fuck Yourself" He wanted to tell the shit
and there it is
"Go Fuck Yo urself"

- Saturday, March 13, 2004 at 10:44:08 (PST)

shit stain is your heart
tomorrow is your wasted dream
- Friday, March 12, 2004 at 21:48:39 (PST)

"I would'nt fuck you,if you gave me ten thousand dollars"

Oh hell no you nasty troll from the sewage nuke waste resevior blow my brains out in the rain
- Friday, March 12, 2004 at 21:33:22 (PST)

"Thank you god for the extra cheese on the pizza"

God Prostitute satan lust
monkey shit filthy diseased money
hookers collection plate
ho-in' churchin' up
hiding under cars in a mini-skirt for Jesus' coke
in the rain only to turn two tricks in the paddy wagon
the pimp of shit hid the needles so you'll have to see him again
in prayer
whore on the cross
whore on the cross
in the bible
- Friday, March 12, 2004 at 21:30:15 (PST)

Your trailer park enough for me

I'm trailer park enough for your love
I'm trailer park you see
The more Jerry Springer your life
the more you were meant for me
I'm trailer park enough for your love
you can't pasta-bly be more hillbilly than me
I'm trailer park enough for your love
and Your trailer park enough for me
The Six Six Six Lord of garbage day
- Friday, March 12, 2004 at 21:22:11 (PST)

winter winter winter
- Friday, March 12, 2004 at 16:02:11 (PST)

"Steering clear of the toaster thing these days"

"Sir, Your daughter is a crack whore and a damn good one,but I want to marry her anyway...How much livestock can you give us now ?"
- Friday, March 12, 2004 at 15:59:29 (PST)

pretend you live
decide to reside in a hole in the ground

the poetry declined and will until there is nothing but criticism unless you climb all over me some more ever since the hottest blonde on the planet "Olivia"
left town and has left me inspi rationless.
- Friday, March 12, 2004 at 15:57:32 (PST)

the lord has left a sign that I will regret the day I asked you to be my favorite slut
for it is to cold to make love to you on the hood of a volkswagon
and there ain't no drinks in your hand

- Friday, March 12, 2004 at 15:54:19 (PST)

jacklyns breasts melted the ice and turned the wind
into bong hits on a spring day at the end of winter

- Friday, March 12, 2004 at 12:09:24 (PST)

cute! and I like it so what everit you do....don't stop...
- Thursday, March 11, 2004 at 22:18:17 (PST)

if you think you have caught me in something
well the truth is that you haven't and I am
not guilty so there is nothing for me to feel
guilty about even though you will be taking
in every letter that has been keystroked up
until now and I am okay with that because
whatever I think and then subsequently write
about is not based on any kind of truth so in
essence my writings are all lies because there
is no one that I am wishing to be with not even
you. Never at anytime is there no where I am
going to meet with anyone else not even with you.
Its too bad that I now have to wear new glasses
which don't do much good for me or us because it
only allows me to see everything for what it is and why it is at any given moment. I am not comfortable with this but I cannot take these glasses off or else I soon start not to make sense like everyone else in this smelly old box
- Thursday, March 11, 2004 at 21:48:00 (PST)

Why is my life not intertwined with yours
considering we belong together no matter
what is thought. no worries should be
with you because you can be assured it
is only ever going to be you me and all
of the rest of what venus controls together
to celebrate what could never be in the long run.
maybe that's it--it all started when we became
1 year and 7 days apart. Hence we are still
the same so there is my
- Thursday, March 11, 2004 at 21:31:21 (PST)

there is a resolution floating in the air just waiting to be picked up but unfortunately at this time it will have to contiwantyouknownue floating around because no one is interested in pulling it down and all I know at this time is that I have a few hours now alone to make
some sounds, lie on the ground, and not be found out inside this not so fine crime rhyme
- Thursday, March 11, 2004 at 19:57:47 (PST)

7nth and final is here for awhile
and then gone it will go out into
the darknes in search of any glow
it must follow along the strands,
grabing them every step of the way
hoping that he will be able to talk
about his journey with others some day
- Thursday, March 11, 2004 at 16:03:33 (PST)

I am so cold right now and you just have no idea nor will you ever know how cold I was because you are not me and you do not know me or do you through your spyware techniques.
- Thursday, March 11, 2004 at 15:58:13 (PST)

the bond that we have that you until now never knew about was just so you know a very strong one because the roots on this bond were so deeply underground that even you didn't know that a bond between me and you was living under your feet.
- Thursday, March 11, 2004 at 15:54:30 (PST)

I sit here and I shake
because my body is cold
my mind is a hundred years old
and my man has been forsaked
not by me though but by the forces
that lie between us and in this case
they have denied him access to me
because for some reason these forces
feel and think because they know that
our love is so great that the moment
fate steps in we would be too powerful
for them to break and so they are keeping
our hearts apart right from the start so this could never happen...but....what they the forces do not realize is that it only took one night and the next thing I knew I my tits were larger than life!
- Thursday, March 11, 2004 at 15:51:44 (PST)

toss away my love like it was rotton meat
but just know that does not make me a defeat
and in the end you never beat me so don't try
to claim right to the bruises you did not create.
the broken vessels of my heart are slowly healing
on their own but when I met you they were still not
together like glue. Well what that meant for me is that each time I came to see you I lost one shoe and now that I do not see you (which I wish I did) what that those bruises meant for you is that you couldn't gain access to my already injured heart. I really am sorry for all the pain I have caused you over the years and the foundation of it all is that I never did stop to think how my stalking obsessive behaviour was interfering in your unique life.

- Thursday, March 11, 2004 at 15:39:52 (PST)

the apathy that i have been sharing of myself to you is only because I am in a no nonsense mode and a space where it is only black and white that controls my thoughts. There is no room for picasso grey or any other touch of grey for that matter because deep down we know we are at odds with each other's success. If you need to weep then by all means let it reap but do not spend your whole life swimming around in salt; unless of course its the ocean which is filled with nature's keepsakes so that is absolutely okay.

- Thursday, March 11, 2004 at 15:28:59 (PST)

and after it was all said and done she was expecting a monetary tip and the only tip they gave her was you do suck but for the record your clothes do not.
- Thursday, March 11, 2004 at 15:20:57 (PST)

"The Hieght of Fashion"

Trixie gave fourteen blowjobs at the fashion show and two of them were to the fashion police
- Thursday, March 11, 2004 at 12:13:26 (PST)

For Fucks Sake

the cattle box is where i wait
for your love
however long it takes
to open up your eyes
for fucks sakes
- Thursday, March 11, 2004 at 10:17:05 (PST)

man i want you
man i love you
man i miss you
man i got a woman...
- Wednesday, March 10, 2004 at 21:06:48 (PST)

Holy fuck...get it straight---------
I'm not going to be going to summer school
I am going to be going to school in the summer
and so incase you are wondering the difference would be
that I really have to study cause this ain't no mickey mouse club
- Wednesday, March 10, 2004 at 20:23:07 (PST)

they call me hippy but not because I represent someone from the sixties. My hips are so predominant that one cannot help but to look at them and think holy hippy.

they don't call me a speeder for nothing and it only took less than 3 months for me to acquire such a name.

there is a reason why when you think of me you are reminded of love and lust.

its too bad that you will only ever remember me as the girl you told stories to; Unfortunately though, those stories never were heard or given the deep soul love attention they needed at the time. Its a known fact that when the attention surfed is when it was way to late for us and our love lust dreams and realities.

More importantly is the fact that to some degree I do kneel in prayer for you because I am certain that instantly you can feel me.

My prayers are simple because all I am asking for is a can crossover can't you and write something so awesome it will blow my mind and make me a believer once and for all?

- Wednesday, March 10, 2004 at 16:38:59 (PST)

Johnny Hollywood was paying the phone girl to buy the landscapers who really dig black sabbath some clothes and shoes so she was over to the walmarts when The Church called seven times that morning asking to talk to Johnny Hollywood about the pending lawsuit over them not printing his songs "The way they was meant to be" in thier weekly bogus publication.
- Wednesday, March 10, 2004 at 15:38:01 (PST)

"Half A Bottle of Orange"

She paid taxes like any other crack whore and went down to the welfare office to get enough to make her life better but forgot how many kids she had, So she asked her caseworker to use the telephone to call Johnny Hollywood but her caseworker said "No"
and she said "Fuck It" and began her job search which did'nt go to well because the only other thing she ever did besides bieng a nasty crack whore was rebuilding tattoo machines for aids infected monkey fuckers
- Wednesday, March 10, 2004 at 15:33:36 (PST)

"Close Your Eyes"

The wet and nasty crack whore was so mad when she opened the small heart shaped box to see the newest Cubic Zirconia Sterling silver nose ring Johnny Hollywood gave her for pollock day and she knew she could'nt even get a decent sized rock for it and would have to spend half the morning on the ho stroll just to get high enough to check the mail
- Wednesday, March 10, 2004 at 15:14:48 (PST)

the mic opened with a feed back squeal so load that Bertha heard it way out in the fields

dancing boy was no longer John Travolta but the second guitar player gone funny

the sluts were plentiful but trademark Johnny Hollywood wanted a nice doctorin' babe now first and foremost
even if she was ten months pregenant

"Are'nt you gonna announce the winner-ski" Dr. Gail heckled from the bar

the parade was almost over and the ugliest karokee loser contest had just started
- Wednesday, March 10, 2004 at 15:09:03 (PST)

I talk shit....hmmmm, let me finish what ima doing...then I'll be back for some thoughts on that one!

br b=20mins
- Wednesday, March 10, 2004 at 13:23:43 (PST)

you love to talk shit
you love not even your self
you love your lies
- Wednesday, March 10, 2004 at 13:13:45 (PST)

runners up

incomplete list
- Wednesday, March 10, 2004 at 13:12:56 (PST)


tattoo ink


oil paint


bleach blonde
- Wednesday, March 10, 2004 at 13:12:27 (PST)

the path is a long one and if you knew me
you would know there is no home no where
and so I roam and the numbers dont mean a thing
while valid
nothing lasts forever
- Wednesday, March 10, 2004 at 08:18:10 (PST)


down in the trailer park prison
each load saved for you finds its way to your sister
- Wednesday, March 10, 2004 at 08:15:52 (PST)

look at the television when you talk to the crack whore
so her magic wont work and the government can hypnotyse you to let them put a microchip in your teeth so they will know where the crack whore goes
and everyone lives happily ever after even when cell phones have different prefixes than where its owner may live for some crazy cat box reason like the store
the people buy the cell number from might have so many numbers that it will be different
because your mother has always been a nasty prostitute since Bertha stole the hogs they was gonna give ya all on yer wedding day chicken stained grease ball monkey ho
- Wednesday, March 10, 2004 at 08:13:35 (PST)

"A New Day,A New Crack Whore"

Where do they come from
where do they go
trailer park
trailer park
shes got herself a nigger
shes got a little song
welfare welfare
all day long
don't need nobody
just a ride home
to the crack house
or where ever she left her babies
they're already crazy
- Wednesday, March 10, 2004 at 08:05:02 (PST)

its very difficult for me to watch love scenes anymore
knowing that without you I can never be whole enough to
feel the way they do. These tears were of joy but then they quickly turned to sadness when the end was there.
I guess what that spells is that for you I do care even
though I never treated you fair and square like I was
suppose to. Before I do go you so need to know that I not only love you so but I am thinking of you during every moan.

- Tuesday, March 09, 2004 at 23:17:01 (PST)

why would I call evanston ill...when travis lives in chicago? Has he moved....if so...he better make all the necessary corrections of his addy at each one of his poetry websites.. ..
- Tuesday, March 09, 2004 at 19:43:11 (PST)

Great call Travis!

- Tuesday, March 09, 2004 at 11:32:59 (PST)

even if you don't know me
mr trc doesn't what I've
said mean anything at all
mr j fuckin hollywood? For
years now I have come to this
place and poured what seems,
my heart out to you because I
am in love with you and have
been since the first day I laid
eyes on one of your word pieces!
- Monday, March 08, 2004 at 20:03:58 (PST)

third eye is now not blind

I have treated you as if you have a heart of steel
not once did I take into consideration how you'd feel
if I showed up every so often all ready to peel off
the layers exposing everything including my heels
in hopes that you will unseal the desire that I feel for you which is burning inside of me. I have ignored your resistance and have instead mistaken it for a hard to get kinda guy who was really trying to tell me goodbye for good unless I was willing to be with you alone forever is what you said and that you could never imagine us any other way but alone to only share each other. You and I both know equally we are searching for the same kinds of dreams because we are made from the same kind of star dust; but does this give me a right to overide what you request of me prior to anytime we meet? I think not now but then I never thought much about it because I was too busy sleeping around and makin a mess in your head and in your room is where all the gloom originated from. I know we agreed to forget about all of that and we even had a truseful moment sitting there holding one another and knowing in that percise moment that we were meant for each other but not in this life time we guess. If you have ever loved me, it was during that time but you always had a way to shut me out in playing the girlfriend thing. You could have had me back then and I know I was worth it because so were you to me and I usually do not comprimise my standards in men. You can still have me but yet you never come around and so it is either because you do not know that you can still have me or it is due to the fact that you do know but you still do not want me at least not the way I want you inside ... deep inside of me. ...
- Monday, March 08, 2004 at 19:47:01 (PST)

and so do computers, for that matter
- Monday, March 08, 2004 at 17:55:28 (PST)

love sucks, amen.
- Monday, March 08, 2004 at 17:55:17 (PST)

i love .......
- Monday, March 08, 2004 at 15:41:53 (PST)

that goes to all the girls who have sucked their hearts dry
of love

for someone

hang in there, girls
- Sunday, March 07, 2004 at 22:19:20 (PST)

poor guy
you don't know you're too dense to see
wonderment incarnate
before your very eyes

if it slapped you in the face
you'd duck and miss the blow

reciporacation would have been nice
but, then again

you can't see

you never could
you can't meet

what do I expect?

- Sunday, March 07, 2004 at 22:17:32 (PST)

What is Knew?

it has taken me 11 years to realize that it is you who brightens up my day and you manage to do this even though you are no where in sight smell or in touch with me you are the only one who has cracked the safe inside my mind and now my heart has been unlocked and you are now free to love it as much as you want and need to and I will not say a thing because that is all I have ever wanted or needed myself was to have you love me as much as I loved you all of these long but surprizing years that we have managed to live even though we have lived them apart from each other we still know what it means to love only us and our eccentric-ness as only we would because it is only us that understands the energy we were born to share with each other when we became young adults
- Sunday, March 07, 2004 at 21:10:43 (PST)

i want you so bad you know that don't you...well don't you???????
- Sunday, March 07, 2004 at 21:02:18 (PST)

"The Worlds Most Excelent Crack Whore Blues Exercise in the Key of E"

The crack whores memory melts into my mind
and she dont remember herself

The crack whores memory melts into my mind
and she dont remember herself

its nothing
when theres nothing left to love
and and all your feelings are on sale
The Crack Whore Pollock,Er I mean Poet
- Sunday, March 07, 2004 at 19:25:03 (PST)

the coast is clear

now is the time to use the code
dialing didgets will bring you home
Here I am waiting by the phone
- Sunday, March 07, 2004 at 19:21:07 (PST)

I am coming into my second set of teeth
so feel free to hunt me down and kiss me
- Sunday, March 07, 2004 at 19:15:07 (PST)

seedless watermelon flavored peroxid e
- Sunday, March 07, 2004 at 09:28:08 (PST)

"Where,Oh Where Hath My Crack Whore Gone To?"

I love my little crack whore
shes the one for me
every single day
shes the one I wanna see
I love my little crack whore
you've gotta believe
theres no other like her
except the other forty million generic
barbie looking heart breaking bitch with the blonde pony tail

I asked a lesbian what should I do
for my crack whore got gone
and all my love is thru
I asked a hot cashier
to see what she'ld say
and it turns out shes got some crack whore issues
so I won't be getting laid
I looked for my crack whore
in the dark of night
her in her jammies would be alright
- Sunday, March 07, 2004 at 09:22:53 (PST)

- Saturday, March 06, 2004 at 23:15:57 (PST)

tell your sister sit on my face
shes the one I'd like to take to the prom if we could
shes the one looking good
sorta like my favorite crack whore
yum yum ski
your sister is all I need

- Saturday, March 06, 2004 at 20:56:04 (PST)

"The Ballad of the Crack Whore Poet"

It's a rough life he leads
always trying to see change
research this dream
the crack whore
you can feel the blues
with this crack whore he does choose
waste the time she won't remember

Its a dead end
loving the crack whore
and not just being pretend
wanting to really live
with her

Its a bunch of lies
but still his love is blind on the line
bordering retardation that obviously is hereditary

no more sloppy joes
let me know when the welfare check is gone
maybe he'll get laid and write something crazy

and if his crack whore bleeds on the back seat of the taxi please
The crack Whore Poet needs a miracle every day too.
- Saturday, March 06, 2004 at 20:50:52 (PST)

"Dont nobody look as good as my crack whore"

Donut no body look as good as my crack whore
shes everything and a whole lot more
I love her truely
and could'nt love her more
Donut nobody be looking as good
as my honeybabes golden fur
donut nobody
donut nobody
donut nobody
be looking half as good
because they can't and if they could
here kitty kitty kitty
they can't
- Saturday, March 06, 2004 at 20:40:23 (PST)

"Night Nights"

Now I lay me down to sleep
with my crack whore of my dreams
if she lies before I wake
and decides valubles are what she'll try and take
I hope the next time its spell-getti she bakes
and if for twenty bucks
I only get her twenty fucks
then I'll give her twenty-one more
to wear the white wedding dress and be my girl
and if I was stoned and gave her fifty
that only means her cat box shure was nifty
- Saturday, March 06, 2004 at 20:34:42 (PST)

"Cocaine is the glue holding our relationshit together"

Cocaine is the glue
holding our relationship together
Cocaine is the bond in our hearts
The Shit is whats helping us stay together forever
and without that we would be apart
Cocaine is the glue
holding our relationship together
Cocaine is whats inside our hearts
nevermind all the others
- Saturday, March 06, 2004 at 07:18:16 (PST)

Crack Whore good Looks

I looked around and what did I see
nobody looks as good as my crack whore
thats fer shure
I believe
she gots them crack whore good looks
I'm not blind
shes like a crack whore treat
I tried to give her a cookie
and she did'nt want to eat
its white macadamien nut
like you honey
I told her because shes pretty sweet
but she only wanted money and smokes and to be free

- Saturday, March 06, 2004 at 07:12:58 (PST)

Bertha Math

7 Bertha's would'nt be enough for me
better make it 8
than we'll see
I don't know,maybe you better add three
just as long as they all are size fourteen
7 Bertha's
bring out the happiness
inside my
Bertha code name BERTHA GENERIC blonde bleach blonde Cybill shepard gangsta barbie looking like forty thousand others
- Saturday, March 06, 2004 at 07:06:12 (PST)

- Saturday, March 06, 2004 at 00:07:19 (PST)

"Molded Cucumber Menioge a Twat-ski Pie"

The crack whore?
I knowed she was my cell mate
My soul mate when my only line I have
the sacred
"Hey baby can I check yer cat box?"
only works on her and thats how I's knowed it right off

"And I know it'll work out in the long run 'cause I never hardly ever burn my womans whore costumes any more" I promised her biggie sized Mama.
only after checking her family tree for a much longer time than he had spent checking the cat box of gold in the first place.

I don't want no aldi rollins road nasty biotches milk
only the milk of my lovely Tina
I don't want no whore cop milk only the milk of Tina
I dont want no old dried up yogert from the heffer deluxe
Only the milk of Tina
I dont want no midget Ho juice
only the Milk of Tina
yes Tina
I dont want no cocanut from the south
only the milk of Tina
I dont want no busted tire snatchasoreous heffer rolls sweating on a dough paste oreo the next roll needing soap
only the milk of Tina
- Friday, March 05, 2004 at 19:05:14 (PST)

"Molded Cucumber Menioge a Twat-ski Pie"

The crack whore?
I knowed she was my cell mate
My soul mate when my only line I have
the sacred
"Hey baby can I check yer cat box?"
only works on her and thats how I's knowed it right off

"And I know it'll work out in the long run 'cause I never hardly ever burn my womans whore costumes any more" I promised her biggie sized Mama.
only after checking her family tree for a much longer time than he had spent checking the cat box of gold in the first place.

I don't want no aldi rollins road nasty biotches milk
only the milk of my lovely Tine
I don't want no whore cop milk only the milk of Tina

///////// // // // // // // // // // // // // // ///////
- Friday, March 05, 2004 at 18:58:22 (PST)

all day I prepared for what tonight was suppose to bring and by prepare I mean I wore new clothes, cooked something special to eat and then ate it alone while waiting by the door and then by the phone only to never hear from you again unless you get your friend to email me again ... would yah do that for me because I am to weak you see to reach out and give me to you again only to be regected and so just so you know I have visited the concrete many times after that which is why I will be visiting again real soon and so if you wanna then just give me a yahoo....

- Friday, March 05, 2004 at 17:36:48 (PST)

No Matter What We Do (Nm-weedo)

I cannot help myself where you are concerned
it takes only one thought and I am calling your name
and it don't matter if its from my mind or out loud because it is all the same no matter what I do as the point is that I will always love you no matter what you do
- Friday, March 05, 2004 at 16:47:20 (PST)

I wanted so much for you
I dreamed of this everday
and I tried to make it better
as best as I knew how I could
but yet you continued to lie
which kept me together with you
because as it turned out I was blind
but then something across my eyes shined
until I could see everything you had been
doing to me from time in memorial or so it seems

- Friday, March 05, 2004 at 16:40:49 (PST)

all I want to be is good
and yet you continue
to try and bring me down
and mix me up and all around
in the soup of gossip you
founded by always flapping
your faws up and down. So
now I can see why you would
naturally want to gravitate
towards this direction especially
when that is all you have ever known
- Friday, March 05, 2004 at 16:28:59 (PST)

i have waited for you for a very long time
because you have always had something of mine
which you did promise you would never hime
so now is right because I have not been fine
- Friday, March 05, 2004 at 16:16:22 (PST)

never before has reverse-peristalsis sounded so wonderful

"It can make you spit in 15 different flavors..."
~ Willy Wonka

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who else here has sold themmself way too short lately????
and I feel like the pony turd collecting bucket

WHY did God give him thighs?!!!!!!!!!!!!!
or, for f*cks sake, a trachea?!!!
just shut up

I can't fall any harder than I have
- Friday, March 05, 2004 at 15:39:31 (PST)

I know you want to love me but you are scared
and rightfully so you should be because when
we merge you know that molecules do explode
The friction we create from all the love hate
is enough to fuel a forest fire for days and
I am sure that somewhere in the world it already
has and in fact if I look really closely, I can
see the negative energy bouncing between you and me
everytime a thought of us is produced inside my mind
I am reminded of the time you said there would be none especially since it was all there beyond our existence
Well... Didn't you?

- Thursday, March 04, 2004 at 20:57:30 (PST)

I feel so old but yet I am still so young
I feel so alone but yet I am overcrowded
I feel so confused but yet it is all so clear
I feel so scared but yet I still go for the dare
I feel so lost but yet I know I have been found
I feel so wronged but yet I am always right
I feel so pale but yet I am as dark as the night
I feel so exposed but yet I am completely covered
I feel so good but yet I sit here and cry
I feel so mean but yet I know I am not
- Thursday, March 04, 2004 at 20:43:01 (PST)

Infinite Word Play

Lovely sounds alot like lonely,
but lonely does not feel lovely at all.

Closely sounds alot like mostly,
but mostly I want to fell closely to you.

Loudly I recite my poetry,
this love song it silently reveres.
I would also like to remind you,
that tears sounds alot like fears.

Excuse my infinite word play,
Excuse how I co- relate,
Excuse my relentless ambition,
Ambition is what defines the word fate.

I knew the truth about me would be blatant with time,
That the one that gets hurt is the one thats most kind.


- Thursday, March 04, 2004 at 11:06:38 (PST)

Infinite Word Play

Lovely sounds alot like lonely,
but lonely does not feel lovely at all.

Closely sounds alot like mostly,
but mostly I want to fell closely to you.

Loudly I recite my peotry,
this love song it silently reveres.
I would also like to remind you,
that tears sounds alot like fears.

Excuse my infinite word play,
Excuse how I co- relate,
Excuse my relentless ambition,
Ambition is what defines the word fate.

I knew the truth about me would be blatant with time,
That the one that gets hurt is the one thats most kind.


- Thursday, March 04, 2004 at 11:00:52 (PST)


I got infection but not disease
I know how you feel
but I'd rather be me

: : : : : : : : : : : : :
- Thursday, March 04, 2004 at 04:42:41 (PST)

You redefine the meaning of
the word friend
but yet you say it is not so
I know though
befriend me some more
- Wednesday, March 03, 2004 at 19:02:53 (PST)

heart breaking bitch
- Tuesday, March 02, 2004 at 16:05:18 (PST)

do you mean graffitti? That forum don't exist nomore!
- Tuesday, March 02, 2004 at 12:15:06 (PST)

I love my groupie
- Monday, March 01, 2004 at 10:54:49 (PST)

I knew this diet of Tina milk was not exactly health food but the coca leaf is a little zesty and gives a boost to the milk and when I put it in my coffee it sorta powers up the morning like a video game.
tina milk thirstoligist
- Monday, March 01, 2004 at 10:54:10 (PST)

I only ever drink the Tina milk when the moon is right and its night and she talks to me again
- Monday, March 01, 2004 at 05:06:20 (PST)

P day

well,we always do put the bike in the front yard
so the dog chain we get caught on it
because we are all that matters in this great big world on pollock day
and we use other peoples razors that we didnt buy even if it was the last on they had on pollock day
on pollock day cause its just that way

and we wait a while before we say anything to bertha bout her pulling the air conditioned john deere tractor
over in the towns square just to raise the hymn on my lap dancers chatholic checkered sptripper outfit
on pollock day
on pollock day
- Monday, March 01, 2004 at 05:00:51 (PST)

Standing firm
in your quicksand
is a little more than I can handle
and so I find myself
in some of the most compromising places
like the side of the road
on my knees
regurgitating liqour and your words
vaguely feeling the clay like ground
and grass
before I rise and walk up to your apartment
the dirt from my palms transfering
onto my tear smeared face
and here I am
unable to feel the ground at all now
sinking deeper and deeper into you
and farther and farther away from myself
and yet you still return to me
the very next day
sit beside me in my house
watching movies,
faking smiles
but I guess you know how much my hand longs
to slip past my lap and into yours
thats the sick thing
you know and I know you know
how much I want you
and how you have me
tucked behind your ear
but I bet you dont know that
the taste of tears, vodka, and beer
still never erase the slick, sweet
flavour of your tongue
and how even when I am sober
(which is less and less often with each passing day)
I am still the girl on the side of the road
vomiting your sickening words onto the ground
unable to get them up
dry heaving in desperation
just addicted to the sound

- Sunday, February 29, 2004 at 18:26:44 (PST)

everything I wish
all the things I'm supposed to
leave out
are one and the same

and damn you for your words
when it's all I have to
breathe by

just tell me
what can I do
what am I supposed to do with that

and you
your games
frozen glass

it's not right
so, what the hell are you trying to say

maybe none of it was real
it's good to pretend that

I die both ways
- Sunday, February 29, 2004 at 14:02:01 (PST)

ewwwwwwww, milking fetish!
a KNOWN isthmus
- Friday, February 27, 2004 at 13:05:33 (PST)

where is the magic of the crack whore I used to know
- Friday, February 27, 2004 at 09:17:48 (PST)

my favorite thing about the crack whore
would have to be her kisses
no maybe the way she says my name
her cat box kisses
oh I like everything about the crack whore
its so hard to decide
- Thursday, February 26, 2004 at 11:20:36 (PST)

just so you know....its positive ... so i have quit smoking.......just like you asked me to a long time ago
- Wednesday, February 25, 2004 at 13:14:57 (PST)

bertha we loves you
- Wednesday, February 25, 2004 at 12:10:57 (PST)

Bingo was her fat useless pimps name he always had a cupcake under the seat if only because of love

for f ood
- Tuesday, February 24, 2004 at 18:51:47 (PST)

The love spell called for eleven mason jars half full of crack whore mil k
- Tuesday, February 24, 2004 at 18:49:49 (PST)

Bertha shot the 12 gauge double barrel sawed off shot gun into the air.
"Listen up people" Bertha hollered
"Somebodys been milking the hot crack whore again"

One of the lazy landscapers scratched his ass
and everyone just looked towards Bertha for further instruction.
- Tuesday, February 24, 2004 at 07:31:15 (PST)

okay, so let's keep this all business-like, then

maybe I won't fall as hard

retrograde wishful thoughts
lacy shade of that muscular tree
for making music for hours
and I'd rather be
nowhere else
than here
in your passenger's seat

bless the lemon cuticle cream massage for being
the best excuse for holding your hand

I'd even be happy as your spleen

- Monday, February 23, 2004 at 17:25:02 (PST)

Fold me in half
the safest thing to do
I wanna be the memory you cant get through
spit me out
save the rest for later
I wanna be the taste you
rub your tongue against to savour
Wash your hands
clean mine too
God help me
I wanna grow on you
- Monday, February 23, 2004 at 11:52:13 (PST)

yes, but the best words come with that vice

getting a new pair of shoes because you stepped in gum
- Sunday, February 22, 2004 at 23:21:58 (PST)

after masterbation im a dead lay,
its been creeping oh its been creeping
a sense the same as others
how easy for it to be sour
why then although released im left together
preach your pleasure , breach a skull
after pleasure comes remo rse

- Sunday, February 22, 2004 at 02:48:29 (PST)

"The lack of Crack whores is only because of the war Johnny Hollywood" Dr. Gail Told J.N.F.H. trying to make him feel better.

- Saturday, February 21, 2004 at 23:49:38 (PST)

"The ugliest woman on the planet contest ended and Johnny Hollywood had a few of the biggest nastiest ugliest women lying to each other saying they had Johnny Hollywood and he was so good trying to look special I reckon" Bertha Mae told the disqualified
super model

soon it hurt to la ugh
- Saturday, February 21, 2004 at 23:25:16 (PST)

"JohnnyHollywood thought "My crackwhore done got gone" was a great name for the new C.D. but his bullshit
bulldyke manager said the fans would'nt steal it off the shitternet if he did name it that."
Gail,Thinking the little bastard that throws like a girl onto the roof and over the fence mostly, was a reporter told the paper boy who delivers the free paper around them parts but now came collecting so he could get some smokes.
- Saturday, February 21, 2004 at 23:17:36 (PST)

Johnny Hollywood soon wished he really was not allowed back at the offices of Dr. Gail because of all the bullshit he had to go thru
and since he was not married he didnt remember
why he was still seeing a marriage consoler
in the first place and just chaulked it up to good pot

"Its not my fault the forklift broke down" Johnny Hollywood told Dr. Gail in confidence
Johnny Hollywood spent most of the morning duck taping the sos pads onto the arms of the forklift and just as soon as dawn ask him to drive the sos pads up her ass it shutdown
The forklift was stuck
so the entire love scene was going to be wasted on this mishap so
at the last minute Dawn was hollerin' and her crack head bitch daughter came out holding her niglet and a picture of her most recent malotto abortion as her stunt double layed down on Dawns back and used the part of the forklift that was not stuck up dawn to hold onto
and brace herself the cameras for the first time in weeks were not wasting film

Dawns crack head bitch daughter told Johnny Hollywood to let his navigational system take over and follow its natural coarse down Tina the stunt double
generic bleach blonde who also looked just like Olivia and Johnnys new favorite Jessica
at first Johnny Hollywood didnt wanna do Tina on dawns back,even with the forklift there to hide the size of dawns ass
and his stomich cramped and he vomited until his stomic was empty
and then he got a better look at how hot tina was and
was finished quicker than you could say hot crack whore

would you could you in a whorecop
would you could you in a whore cop

the machine said again and again

Johnny placed all of the money on this race
with the agreement that he could look at Tina when the Whorecop got her cat box sand traps raked
with the navigational system.

"You did'nt even check her cat box first?" Dr. Gail asked in shock

"I glanced in that direction" Johnny Hollywood lied
so it would'nt seem so bad.
- Saturday, February 21, 2004 at 15:53:49 (PST)

The new micro chip was working fine Johnny Hollywoods thoughts were bieng projected onto the big screen
and the words were printed on the bottom in captions

"You getting sleepy,very sleepy Johnny Hollywood"
Said Dr. Gail as she swung the greenish piece of coustume jewelry back in forth in front of the litehouse chess pieces on the card board furniture
in her government issue caseworker bitch office.

Johnny Hollywoods eyes closed and he started dreaming of bieng lost on KellyCakes Island with Cassie and she was wearing six inch heels.
Gail slammed the bible down on the lighthouse chess board scattering all the lighthouses across the room and onto the freshly garbage picked lawn funiture
as REM music played in the background

Johnny Hollywood was out of it
Gail then asked "Why did you burn your last wifes prostitute coustums,Johnny? Even though she was leaving you and said it was for good,You knew she just had a date and would come back after she was done turning a few tricks"
Johnny Hollywood started snoring then bubbles came from his mouth and a quiet growl
"Bertha! Its time to milk the crack whore" Johnny Hollywood said as he jumped off the retard bus
"I think I can I think I can" he chanted as he ran to the door"

The white rabbit was standing there asking Johnny Hollywood" Would you could you with a Whorecop?"
"Would you could you with a whore cop?"
"Would you could you with a whore cop?"

The screen went black and showed no thought process
minutes went by
then the entire screen showed a straw like bleach blond ponytail.

Lugnuts numbers one and two started to itch and Johnny Hollywood woke up.

"That's all we have time for today Johnny" Said Gail trying to rush Johnny Hollywood out the door.

"But we did'nt even talk about the big fat bitch who wants me to do her with her big penis bong" Said Johnny

I can't see you anymore Mr. Hollywood,you need anger management classes at a hundred bucks a week for a year!" Gail said as she faded away down the hall.

When she came back into the room she had the computer read out stating the damages of the whore costumes
and the bill for twenty seven hundred dollars including the rocking chair.
"Its a good thing you did not cut her convertible in half with the sawzall,Johnny" Gail Said

"I pawned it to feed her pizza" Johnny Hollywood said
with a tear in his eye.

"Alright Johnny you can still see me,but no more reading Dr. Suess" Said Gail as she looked at her breastless chest.
- Saturday, February 21, 2004 at 09:41:25 (PST)

pain is a love spell
that you can not break
dream her and can not taste
together on the cross
until our hearts are free
like our spirits

- Saturday, February 21, 2004 at 09:10:28 (PST)

Pain is a fith of vodka with
sweet and sour mix
pain is hte sound of silent
scuffing slippers
against hardwood floors
pain is the division of
malignent cells
pain is my mother
"no one should show their shoulder!'
No thank you mother
I've got enough here
I've enough with these
cold hearts and
mended wounds
I've enough
jesus christ
realize it,
no no I wont capitalize, on him
or it, or you, no mater what
I am me
accept it
realize it
because I wont change until tommorow
and then you wont be you and I wont know exactly just what it is that I percieve or desire
give it up
I never will
you infamous
I dontevn know who you are
and I wouldnt care
even if I
do you have that?
Is that clear?
or do I have to spell it out to you?
Thats all I really want

- Friday, February 20, 2004 at 21:25:08 (PST)

My life is with her
so is my own heart
but the obsticles that occur
come only from my part
2 months and a year
She is still apart of me
its the loss of her Eye fear
because of something Eye don't see
She is the breath taking view
Eye've never seen before
She is my happy-sad blue
when Eye'm in love and tore
She is where Eye go
when Eye leave for a while
Eye return from her shadow
after Eye leave thruogh her smile
my eyes breath her face
while my hands taste her skin
as Eye float through a
heavenly place
when her arms pull me in
if its wrong to feel this way
in the place thet Eye'm in
then forever Eye will stay
and live blissfully in sin.
Little Jessyca
- Friday, February 20, 2004 at 03:35:46 (PST)

man, I'm glad I have these
but if I had that,
I'd never leave the hou se
- Tuesday, February 17, 2004 at 18:01:08 (PST)

real art

a bartender the right wieght to walk on my back

- Sunday, February 15, 2004 at 10:16:47 (PST)

Tonight I let the idea ofyou go
sighed, turned my head
and exhaled
I waited till you were gone to
breathe in again
the air tasted no different
but at least I had a feeling
that i was finally doing something
right for myself
if only being away from you
didnt feel so wrong

Happy Valentines Day
- Saturday, February 14, 2004 at 21:38:24 (PST)

Nina Nina

I wanna get with you
- Saturday, February 14, 2004 at 17:50:33 (PST)

(tomorrow is the greatest day of my life)
did her words betray her, to the extent they did me?
I know what she told me,
she is too young to know what this is.
I wish she cared,
the way I feel doesn't mind that she says things.
it's been too long for this to be real.
I never trust myself,
that's why I lose....

butnot this time, I need to get to the bottom of this.
- Saturday, February 14, 2004 at 00:41:07 (PST)

bend me over and make me feel like mall trash, bitch!
- Thursday, February 12, 2004 at 01:20:39 (PST)

Just what do I expect to see?
I think I know what you mean
sweet Eve
I keep putting myself out there
hoping to recieve
but giving is all I ever get
a faded sign his last regret
washed clean by my eager nature
and the need to just be with him
Dont give me the whole damn bag of Chocolates
just so you can rip it away after I eat one

- Wednesday, February 11, 2004 at 15:27:24 (PST)

okay, I found the answer

I can share
- Wednesday, February 11, 2004 at 12:08:32 (PST)

can't we just pretend to be together
to hug and kiss
without the commitment to icky stuff

I'll try to pretend a little more
hold on a while longer
it's going to be hard
giving up on you

praying for you to ask

I am going to explode
- Tuesday, February 10, 2004 at 18:19:56 (PST)

I love my crack whore
shes so fine
wanna make her
always mine
I love my crack whore
shes so sweet
if only her cat box
she'ld let me eat
I love my crack whore
always will
even if shes changes
and aint no crack whore no more
- Tuesday, February 10, 2004 at 12:01:23 (PST)

COME on baby
have my abortion

rusted coat hanger adventure

- Tuesday, February 10, 2004 at 11:55:42 (PST)

i ain't gonna watch your kid
just so you can skip out with him
i ain't gonna bend to your whim
ain't gonna say yes ma'am
just step on me
i don't mind
not one bit

i ain't gonna pretend it don't hurt
to see the marks he leaves on your neck
i ain't gonna pretend i don't care
i'm sick of watching you
pushing him away
dragging him back
crying to me when he leaves
crying to me when he won't

he hurts you on the inside
right where most can't see
i ain't gonna pretend i can't
not no more

i won't stand by and be your shoulder
i ain't gonna watch your kid
i love you
i hate you and him
i ain't gonna pretend i do
not no mor e

- Monday, February 09, 2004 at 20:09:17 (PST)

just so you know ... I know the difference between gratitude and love
- Sunday, February 08, 2004 at 00:53:53 (PST)

- Sunday, February 08, 2004 at 00:44:32 (PST)

balls of fire
trails of light
there is life
inside energy
and there is energy
inside all of life
which is why I
can always see beyond
what we think we are
and into our fate so
untouched by what we
know now of ourselves
and how we are soul mates
- Sunday, February 08, 2004 at 00:33:43 (PST)

Don't get me wrong though
as I wonder for not too long
and that is because I got to
get to my next assignment which
is the present song on o ne
- Sunday, February 08, 2004 at 00:27:59 (PST)

my heart is healthy
so it is not hurt
love keeps it going
while lust is trying
to rip it apart.
My mind is active
therefore I am not dull
sometimes I wonder where
you all get your gull
- Sunday, February 08, 2004 at 00:25:27 (PST)

its o.k. if you are in some fantasy land so far away from reality and think that
the television show is going to give me and you five hundred million dollars if we get married
and I am going to get the thin guitar picks
and wait for the food you ordered because you are to pretty to cook and are jealose of the half way cute bitches to the point where I think we are..
and I will promise to lick your cat box clean and hardly ever fuck your friends
especially the ugly ones
and in this you can see that we are soul mates
and I can not wait to ride you as hard as I would Shelly if I had the chance
- Sunday, February 08, 2004 at 00:23:58 (PST)

shirley to god
are you listening
if you are then
please know that
I am going to
will it all out
of my life tomorrow
and yes you could
say to me well how
can that be considering
today is always today
because tomorrow is never
really itself when it
automatically has to turn
into today. I would then
say to you that you can be
certain of this will thing
- Sunday, February 08, 2004 at 00:21:18 (PST)

the strings ask everyone to fuck off
in the way of art
there are seldom few
that resinate the soul with answers
her name means everything
in a world that means nothing
and my heart sees the truth

- Sunday, February 08, 2004 at 00:15:37 (PST)

yes its true we all sometimes can get ahead of ourselves
especially when we pay no attention to the days or their dates
- Sunday, February 08, 2004 at 00:10:33 (PST)

get real
get serious
get tough
age is passing you
now is the time to
step into love
here and now
I am above
watching you feel
everything you need to

- Sunday, February 08, 2004 at 00:08:39 (PST)

Winner Winner Winner
Miss Valentines Day 2004

: :
- Sunday, February 08, 2004 at 00:08:32 (PST)

What Is Joy
Does Everyone Have It
Can Everyone Know It
Would Everyone Want It
Should Everyone Have It
Joy Is What you Make It
So Long As It Provides
A Desirable and Pleasurable
Outcome but then What Are
Those Two If They Are Not
Painful and Inhumane? They
Must Be Good Or My Soul Would
Not Be So Passionate About Them
To The Point It Begins To Crave
all that is good in life and all
that which brings or gives joy

- Saturday, February 07, 2004 at 23:56:16 (PST)

Shall I stop
pick up the mop
and clean the pop
I know I will just hop
until I flop into the shop
or maybe I can just opt out of the whole t hing?
- Saturday, February 07, 2004 at 23:46:21 (PST)

my words are daggers
sharply made to wound
the receipient and
that person knows just
who they may be especially
when everything about this
has a personal familiarity
- Saturday, February 07, 2004 at 23:39:14 (PST)

I am going to quit everything
including food after looking
at you and what you have become
makes me sick enough to have
already begun
- Saturday, February 07, 2004 at 23:36:31 (PST)

do I not seem relaxed enough for you
the reason why you are always trying
to offer me a beverage made only with
alcohol when you know that ain't my
style or shall I tell you again mr
voodoo child?

- Saturday, February 07, 2004 at 23:34:41 (PST)

The boys are at my window again
but I know, unlike you
they dont really want in

- Friday, February 06, 2004 at 14:31:34 (PST)

the samien symbol 8=libra
so let me count up until
I reach this very sentence
and then realize not to
include it as that would
then make it nine and I
don't have the time for
your red, black, and white
kiss like faces all around
the cold concreted city
- Thursday, February 05, 2004 at 21:16:02 (PST)

no fair to boo me off the white stage
and allow johnny Hollywood to spread his disease
as I am just as important if not even more
so why you gotta keep shutting this door?
only to open it everytime and see me still
standing there and so that should tell you
that I ain't going no wh ere.
- Thursday, February 05, 2004 at 21:12:38 (PST)

is this a takeover
no its an overtake
as I hover over us
and this very place
until you agree that
you are who I know
you to be
- Thursday, February 05, 2004 at 21:08:24 (PST)

consider it done
I will raise your son
it will be so much fun
but he will not weigh a ton
and many times will he have won
but never scolded from a nun
but will have had an encounter with a gun
until his homework is done
then he may run
but he must eat a bun
and never call me h un
- Thursday, February 05, 2004 at 21:05:54 (PST)

I love words
as most can
tell and as
most know the
words love me
too and it can
been seen that
we just gel
there is an
alien on my
computer screen
and although it
is small that does
not mean that I should
doubt its intelligence
but now that it is gone
my nerves are relieved
and I am totally relaxed
whereas when it the alien
was around I had to be on
guard because it was trying
to analyise me
- Thursday, February 05, 2004 at 20:47:41 (PST)

it is the elements
and I am glad to
see others catching
on to the nature
inside the natural
but not inside them
for that just isn't
in many of them to
fess up to the fact
they are not who they
say they are because
they have yet to realize
who they really are so
how they they really be
if at this time they are
not themselves because it
is still unbenounced to them
just who they really are

- Thursday, February 05, 2004 at 20:36:16 (PST)

thoughts are intangible
until they are turned into
actions are the result
of ideas or thoughts
that wanted to be born
nothing is nothing unless
something inside the nothing
exists then that nothing
becomes something that can
be something else through
the interaction it creates
by just being around something
else other than nothing

- Thursday, February 05, 2004 at 20:30:02 (PST)

friction causes heat
heat comes from friction
survivor is the butterfly affect
the big bang created it all
but what created the big bang
was it in and of itself able
to colide into something else
in order to create the order
I see and the kaos you experience
- Thursday, February 05, 2004 at 20:26:22 (PST)

am I a
or should I just
- Thursday, February 05, 2004 at 20:21:29 (PST)

- Thursday, February 05, 2004 at 10:39:06 (PST)

The episodes are quieter now
or perhaps its just me
its hard to keep my back straight
causing an intimate relationship
with the sight of my knees
it has lasted longer than you
Fuck a memory
Fuck you

- Wednesday, February 04, 2004 at 17:51:16 (PST)

Winner Winner Winner
Cassandra Cassie
Miss Febuary 2004
- Wednesday, February 04, 2004 at 16:26:51 (PST)

Gracie bought the only copy of the new Rat Acid Cd that sold
When asked why she wanted her money back she said
"She thought it came with microwaveable popcorn
- Tuesday, February 03, 2004 at 22:14:27 (PST)

its time to kill yourself

The lord kicked in Johnny Hollywoods front door
and the angels sang the theme to barretta

Johnny Hollywood started a new rockin' band called "Cat Box Jaundce"
and was hopin' to play the first gig down at the welfare office but the door man was that crazy russian bitch with a gun as big as the guitar Johnny Hollywood played on the just say cheese disaster
"Everybody don't write thirty-two songs about the trials and tribulations of sir edward lowe and the cat box he invented " said the cat box poetry police

Johnny Knew the Tina sores would go away
if he could just get the navagational system to get used to
her ph and take into account what a ho she is and adjust the outter layer to a steel reinforced
heavy duty Tina Sore eating machine with balls
chevy powered three fifty

Johnny Hollywoods campaign was going to hell
every station and every voice in the government issue crack whores mind kept saying

Johnny Hollywood wanted the next band release to have a thirty two page fold out photo display of a pregenent mes-i-kin
then there was the obligatory...
"Johnny Hollywoods playing hand was so callosed from milking the crack whore to feed the rats that he could not play the guitar anymore" Said the conductor to the crowd as they threw Johnny Hollywood from the train for insucfishant funds.
pizza up your ass
- Tuesday, February 03, 2004 at 22:10:46 (PST)

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